Right There is My Best Mistake

☁️ The Call about Gramps☁️

💫☁️The ones who love you will always be there for you 💫☁️

(Few weeks later)

I still can't believe I kissed Sean on my birthday 🙈 shit . I have barely spoken to him or seen him not because it awkward but because I been crazy with promoting.

But I had to cancel my shows this week and fly down to boca because we got the call that gramps isn't doing well 😔. So we fly down there immediately and go see him. He was so grumpy but there isn't a place I would rather be then in there with him me and mommy layed on opposite sides of him .

Then gramps started become less grumpy which was good he made a comment about my hair being to big. The doctor came and talked to us and told us that they don't know much longer his body can take the pain from his chemo.

That broke me down he had just beat his battle and now I could still lose him. I am a grandpas girl I will always be. So we stayed with grandpas as long as we could and then went back to my childhood home. I lay there just thinking of all the love and inspirational talks he has given me I am not ready to say goodbye .

Before I know i it's the next morning but I wake up to toulouse laying with me under the blanket which confused the hell out of me. like Umm I know i am in Boca why is he is bed with me .😳💕 but then I look at the foot of the bed to see ophelia laying there looking up at me.

This is just what I needed to have my babies with here me. I smile and stretch to see toulouse waking up and cuddling into me this knows I need him and that I am in pain.

We go out side and I take a picture and video and post it on my Instagram and Twitter .. See my loves sending me love and the trending topics. This brought tears to my eyes my loves don't know how much they help me and mean to me.

A little later we go visit gramps I had been trying to get Jai on the phone but nothing ugh to think I actually miss him 🙈 I completely have up so I stated pretty late with gramps he said he wanted oatmeal so I made it for him and stayed until he fell asleep. As I kiss his head and grab my purse.

My phone went off I pull it in Hopes it's my boyfriend, but no it was the only and only Sean Anderson that's was calling me i breathed in and answered as I made my way to car.

Sean : babyGirl
Me: : yeah
Sean : how are you i know your grandpa is sick ?
Me : I broke down and started crying
Sean : babyGirl it's going to be fine you have to stay positive . He is a strong man.
Me. : sobbing saying I know
Sean : I am here for you , you know that you
Me : I know (still sobbing) me just beat his battle he doesn't deserve this. I want him here with me but I can't be selfish.
Sean ; babyGirl you have to stay strong but you saying that you don't want be selfish says that you are putting him first
Me : this is so hard as I hop out of the car and walking into the house and tell him that he is right and thank you I would talk to him later
Sean : alright baby girl

I went to get ready for bed and saw that toulouse is waiting me i cuddling with him and as I try to sway to sleep I decide to end things with Jai tomorrow's first thing in the morning he won't care clearly he hasn't answered my text or calls.

As I drift away to sleep with my baby toulouse I think about how great a friend that Sean is I seriously love that he called me and talked me off the edge of my break drown .

The next morning I woke up and saw toulouse still by my side I smile get up and brush my teeth and wash my face and decide to call Jai and end it he answered and I told him that it wasn't working out and he agreed and that was it..

As I walk to the kitchen I pull my hair into a mess bun and I hear talking and laughter i stop because I recognize that laugh I walk more into the kitchen and see the crew , my Nonna and mommy & Sean. They all turn to me and I walk over to my Nonna kiss her cheek and mommy's
And I walk over to sean and hug him so hard and ask him what he is doing here.

Sean told me he felt like he needed to be here for me like I was there for him. I started to cry he wiped my tears I look up at him and say thank you I can't help but feel like my love for him is growing more and more.

We all eat and start talking and my mommy ask me if I have heard from Jai and I told yes i he finally answered and I broke up with him. Let's just say that shocked everyone, I felt sean graze on me.

I put my empty bowl from my oatmeal and went upstairs to get ready to see gramps I was taking Sean to meet the most important man in my life besides toulouse lol

We hop in the car off to see gramps 💫☁️