Right There is My Best Mistake

Loosing my light

A/n so loves this the 5th update this means I am almost done with this story .. I start school on the 7th of September and I wanted to have this story finished cause my school is online and its very important for me to get good grades.. So also Ari sent a dm about us not knowing Ricky so I told her I would give him a person .. But if he is the person I think he is I will be so upset at her and go off on her like I always do because I don't care.. Always stop over analyzing everything she does shit its gets annoying . When her words get twisted by Us Fans its like yall love drama.. If you love her then love her .. Try to focus on the good and how much she has helped you or how much she makes laugh.. Or her music ...

Always who all is getting to see Sean this summer I don't get to see him 😩😩😩.... So please if you can send me pics and videos my Twitter is Tatiana_Traeana .. Or Ig Ariandsean ..

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I hope you enjoy this update I will update fafy next .....

After making plans with Ricky to hang out during the Fourth of July weekend before my teeth get pulled. I wonder if it wrong that I am "falling" for Ricky being that I was just in having sex with Sean less then a few weeks ago. This is real thot behavior I think back to the dms and tweets I was getting and I know that I am in the wrong . 

But the next morning I get ready to go hangout with Ricky and his family., we are just driving around being so stupid yelling at people it felt fun at the time but it made me think about times with Jai and Sean..

I know it's not hard to tell that I like a guy who can make me laugh. It makes me wonder if I am even really happy or if I am just going with the motions I know I keep telling my fans and friends that I am happy but my fans know me better then I know myself.

We make it to his house and I am immediately greeted by Ricky's dog bossy who is the most adorable baby ever, I spent most of my time invested in him until we went to the top of the hills that seemed close to Sean's House..  I got me head out of that thought and tries to focus on Ricky and going to see the fireworks.

After we seeing the fireworks we head back to his house and have a couple of drinks when Ryann decides that we should go get donuts I was for some reason very excited about this so I went with and we finally make it to the donut shop and I see Ricky stick his tongue out and lick the donut then he motions for me to do it. One thing lead to another and I kissed him.. It felt sloppy and not like anything I have experienced with my other exes.. We all know Sean has tongue and his lips . Stop Ariana get your mind out of the gutter .. But I will say Ricky lost some cool points for that kiss..

My absent minded ass decides to lick these donuts know that they are far from vegan. And I see the girl come back out with different donuts and isle this comment saying I hate America.. Then when I pay for the donuts that we picked. I eat this long chocolate donut.   Not sure why since I am a vegan and have hypoglycemia .. I guess I was trying to impress them .

We head back to his house I drink a couple more drinks and ended up having to stay over with Ricky I brought extra clothed just incase.. I was more than willing to sleep on couch but Ricky offered his bed and said he would sleep out here. He was at least that nice, I attempt to get this make off my face with help from Ryann. Finally after 20 minutes later I have a clean face .. Why don't I just wear no make up .. But then I remember I feel insecure about how I look without it.

I head into his room and I see bossy is following me into the room. I gladly help into the bed with me since it was weird without my Toulouse .. But bossy would do. I pass out with in a matter of minutes ..

I spent the morning snapping with bossy, I convinced Ricky to let me takin with me for the night but he said he would come get him later. I get home with bossy and Toulouse was not having it kind of but he honestly hasn't wanted anything to do with me since Sean and I broke up .. He knows that Sean was the right guy for me.. But I don't know how to fix everything.. I know he unfollowed me on Ig ... I need to fix my daddy issues but I am trying I have been with my dad a lot more.. So I hope this helps me ..

The night the video surfaced ..

(Sean Pov)

Zeno .. Aye Sean ...

Sean ... Yeah ..

Zeno ... I thought Ariana was vegan ..

I look over at him like i don't get what he is getting at ...

She is why are you asking ..?

Zeno .. I don't know... She is on video licking donuts with that Replacement... I mean she tasted you plenty of times .. Nigga you are chocolate

Sean .. What are you taking about ..?

Zeno .. Look .. ( shows the video) I thought you said she changed ? Wasn't yall just fucking.. ?

Sean... Damn .. Nigga I haven't seen her since the show .. She seemed okay .. But you know .. This is gonna be bad for her her fans will go in cause I know they still tag me in shit saying come get your friend ... She is kissing this Ricky dude to.. Like damn she told me he wanted skot.. But she clearly doesn't know what she is talking about.. ..

Zeno .. I think you should call her ..

I look at him he has lost his mind ..

Sean... Why chase what I can replace ...  Damn you changed your tune rather quickly ...

Zeno .. I just don't think you should cut her off before she explains plus .. Her gramps 1 year is coming soon.. She is gonna need you ...

Sean... Nah I can't be captain save a hoe all the time .. She is a grown ass woman know ... But I will reach out for when her gramps 1 year comes around.. I can tell she is loosing her light ...