scrambled

fears.

i usually wouldn't write about the things that make me weak,

but i began to think.

friends.

what would happen if all my friends were gone?

and i was left alone, no one holding on.

if i'm not doing something for someone,

what am i?

i am considered useless.

losing my friends is one of my greatest fears.

i have many.

but what if they all leave me?

or they finally get sick of me?

i'm surprised they haven't already.

fox, i've hurt times too many.

salamander, too many words have been said.

snake, i've hurt just like fox.

well macaw i couldn't really give a damn but whatever.

that's one fear out of the way.

~

the dark.

it's dumb, i know.

but it's terrifying.

who knows when something can attack,

when you're defenseless,

maybe even peaceful?

one moment you're jolly,

the other you're dead.

if you're with people, even worse.

you have to protect them,

or they'll die, and it's all your fault.

there's something out there

there has to be.

or it's just my mind tricking me.

~

secrets.

mine, being found out.

recently, a friend of mine found out a quite embarrassing secret i didn't want anyone else to know about.

now i'm scared.

what if she uses it against me?

or shows it to all my friends?

they'll think i'm weird, and they'll hate me.

they probably already do.

or worse, they'll tell everyone in the grade.

then i'll be a social outcast once again.