Travis Kelce's daughter

03

Dorothea's pov

Dad left for the training camp last night.

I woke up around 9am, fed Skye and took her for a short walk. When i came back i watched some youtube on the living room TV after chugging some water and making myself coffee

I haven't done much for the rest of the day, it's summer after all and i don't have the social battery to meet up with friends at the moment so i took Skye to the park to walk around a bit. I had to carry her for the second half of the walk because she has short legs, so she gets tired after a while and i walk fast because it burns more calories.

I got back to my car and put Skye on the passenger seat. We stopped at Starbucks on the way back because i'm already tired and it's only 4pm. 

I know that i would have more energy if i ate enough to sustain my body's needs but at this point i can't.

It first started when i was fourteen and i started throwing out my food when i could and throwing up my food when i gave intro my temptations and binged.

But i somehow forced myself to recover all by myself and became healthy again.

I didn't recover for the right reasons though, because while people don't wanna be anorexic because it's dangerous and unhealthy, i didn't want to have an ED because i was scared that someone would find out about it before it kills me and they would force me into a psych ward, and all the mental illnesses that i was hiding would be uncovered.

I started struggling with food again a few months ago. I went back to restricting, starving myself and hating my body. I tried to stop myself before i got too deep, but clearly i was unsuccessful.

Now i'm past the point of wanting to stop. Yes, i know that it's wrong but i need the effects so i don't care about that anymore.

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I know it's short but i don't like skipping over multiple days in one chapter

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