Jax x Reader (Fem!Shy!Caring!)

Chapter Ten: Insecure

I simply stood there--completely dumbfounded. I decided to shake off the impending feeling that was laid onto my chest. I was tired of feeling negative emotions all of the time. Though, the term "idiot" stuck like glue. It seems like that's the only thing he sees me as; an idiot.

I took a deep breath as I left my room. I'm done sitting and doing nothing. Maybe Jax was right--it's going to make me go insane if I stay in my room 24/7.

I decided to take a walk around the circus, maybe talking to Pomni or something--since she seems to be new too. But we'll see who I stumble across.

I was walking throughout the hallways, trying to get my thoughts put together. I didn't know what to do exactly, so I kept on roaming around the circus, hoping to find clarity in something.

While walking, I did hear some footsteps behind me. I paused to listen. When I heard nothing, I decided to turn around.

"Oh, hey Pomni," I greeted her. I smiled sweetly as I waved. She gave me an uncertain smile and waved back.

"Uh hey...can I please walk with you? I-If that's okay..." Pomni wondered.

"Of course you can!" I exclaimed. She walked over to where I was as I continued walking.

"S-Since you're new as well, I want to ask you a few questions...is that alright? I'm still new to this place too, and uh...I was hoping you could shed some light on things I might not be aware of?"

"Sure. You can ask whatever you want. I doubt I'll have an answer to everything though."

"That's fine."

I gave her a reassuring smile while she asked me her first question.

~Jax's POV~

I was in my room, pacing back and forth. Why was I so interested in the "new girl," Daphne or whatever her name was. She's the only one I seem so intrigued about. I want to know more about her, but I can't help but feel like I shouldn't be so "up-in-her-business," she obviously just sees me as a nuisance, so why the hell do I continue trying?

But maybe she's just acting idiotic and stubborn. I wouldn't blame her because of the situation she's forced into. But it does make me salty, knowing that she probably hated my company--but why do I care?? All I should care about is myself, because at least I'm not dead or suffering for the rest of eternity like Kaufmo probably is.

I decided to check on Daphne again, since she was the only interesting one I could mess with for the time being. The others are boring to talk to, and I prefer to talk to somebody who will actually talk back. It's fun, since she's all "dramatic."

I left my room and started walking to Daphne's room, whistling to myself quietly. I knocked on her door. Though, strangely enough, there was no response. I sighed as I grabbed the golden key--which frankly unlocks the door to everybody's room. It comes in handy sometimes. Mainly to screw people over, but sometimes it's for a concerned gesture...barely.

I opened up her door. Huh. Nobody was there.

"Finally, maybe she decided to finally leave her room," I chuckled to myself quietly. I put the key away as I started walking down the hall. Now...where could she be...? Sure, we got off on the wrong foot a couple hours ago, but maybe she was just having a rough time...I know I was.

Though, I shouldn't care this much about a basic girl like her. She has nothing going on for her, besides her somewhat empathy and dramatic aura. Yet, I crave her existence. Whenever she's around, I can't help but smile to myself. Whether she's pissed off or not. I love the look on her face though when I screw with her--her reactions are priceless!

"Now, where could Daphne be?" I muttered as I left the bedroom area, heading to the stage, where I finally see her.

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Hey guys! I hope this chapter is alright, since there's some parts I wish I could change about it. But it's okay overall. I tried doing a "Jax POV" thing too, as you can tell. Did you guys like it, or do you prefer if I stick with the reader's POV only? Since I'm trying things out, as you can tell! I do hope you like the difference in POV's (and I can always do other POV's like Ragatha's or Pomni's at some point too!) I hope you guys have a lovely rest of your day <3