noah de santis
i've been pushing jordan away, i don't know why but i have
i feel almost dead, i feel like a zombie
my bodies doing great but i'm just mentally fryed
i'm a piece of shit
jordan cruz
"you heading to the de santis' later?"my dad asks
"i want to but noah's been off, might give him a little bit of space"i mumble
"he doesn't need space, he needs you"my dad says
"maybe i'll go check on him later"i say
noah de santis
"is your dad home?"jordan asks
"no, he's at the warehouse, did you need something from him?"i ask
"yeah"jordan says
"what?"i ask
"i need his son to talk to me and let me into his brain so i know what i can do"jordan says
"jordan"i say
"your my boyfriend noah, we've barely talked these past few weeks"jordan says
"i've been busy"i say
"no you haven't been, i know your schedule i-i keep track of you"jordan says
"you do?"i say suprised jordan nods and sighs
"i want to know what happened"jordan says
"nothings happened"i lie
he rolls his eyes
"i've seen your dad's lawyers more than i've seen my guards the past three weeks, there's always at the warehouse and there always here and on top of that you got six new guards and about five more camera's around the house"jordan says
"you haven't been driving, i know because your tank is full and i have your location"he adds
"your either here, your nonno's or with one of your uncles"jordan says
"and don't think i didn't notice that you've gotten thinner"he says
he cups my face in his hands
"was it something that happened on our trip?"he asks
"no it was- it was something else"i mumble
he sits me on my couch and kneels down in front of me
jordan grabs my hands in his and rubs my knuckles
"your pushing me away which is okay if you need some time i can give you time but don't just ghost me babe, i can wait we have all the time in the world"jordan says
tears fill in my eyes
"why do you like me?"i ask
jordan's face soften
"you want the honest answer?"he asks i nod
"i love you"he says "i've loved you for years even before you were you, i've always loved you"he says
"i loved playing with you as kids and i loved helping you and your uncles bake but i mostly just watched you because i was so madly in love with you even if i didn't know what love was i knew that i would always want you and need you in my life to keep going"jordan says
he squeezes my hands softly
"all of our sleepovers we had and still have i watch you sleep most of the night because it's when your most peaceful and so interrupted with the ugliness of this world, i love you and i think i'm obessed with you i love being around you and hearing you voice and hearing you laugh and for fucks sake when you talk bad about yourself i want to crawl into your mind and take out all of the bad thoughts and put in only happy ones"he adds
"i loved you as kids, i love you now and i honest to god will love you until the day i die and even after that, i will crawl my way to you anytime for anything"he says
jordan wipes the tears from my face and kisses my hands softly
"i wish your mom didn't hurt you because you didn't deserve it if i knew, i would've come for you and if i couldn't walk i'd crawl to you and no matter how broken we were we'd fight our way together, knifes drawn pistoles blazing because that's what we do. we never stop fighting"jordan says
i laugh softly through my tears
"that's from six of crows"i mumble
"your favorite character is kaz despite you saying it's wylan i know it's kaz"jordan says
i kiss him
"i love you too by the way"i say
THE END
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RomanceAce de Santis son is growing up. Noah is being prepared to become the leader of his father's mafia. an unexpected alliance that could lead to romance
