To you, who changed (A Short Series Of Poems)

"Who are you?"

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With all the questions that comes to mind,
'Is it you that's cruel, or is our fate the one to blame' is what I always find.
This might be the theme of this poem compilation,
But it is truly something that I can't answer, pumping up my frustration.

My mind's been a mess, I won't deny.
With everything that's going on, I can't even cry.
Rest is what I desperately want to do,
But how can I when my mind is filled by the thoughts of you.

I do not know what to think, nor what to feel in this moment,
What have I really done to deserve such treatment?
You were my friend, or were you not?
'cause I know, I can no longer stand being tied in this messy knot.

I remember the first time that you talked to me,
It feels as though I found a new friend and I thought, 'finally'.
You were the first one that made me feel like I can finally belong,
Yet you also became the one that made me wish that we just never got along.

Or do I really wish I never met you?
You caused me pain, yet in all my fond memories, there were still you.
You helped me whenever you can, even giving me your precious time.
With every moment I felt like giving up, you were there to tell me how things are going to be fine.

Remembering all those moments,
I can't help but doubt this present.
How can someone, a friend of mine, suddenly turn so cold?
In a way that I can't even fathom how things started to unfold.

It was so fast, too hurtful, for my heart and mind to bear.
And in all those moments, all I can think is if do you even care.
You and I respected one another in all those years,
Then all of a sudden, you became the reason for all these tears.

Is it really our fate that I should blame?
Because no matter what I do, the results stay the same.
No matter how hurt nor angry I am, I spoke to you,
The way you changed so fast made me wonder who did you turn into.

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