Beneath the Surface

Chapter 11 - Thoughts to reality

We enter. Her appartement is small and cozy, white walls and 1 orange accent wall behind the tv. A lot of plants. 

"I didn't know you liked plants so much." 

"No, my ex did but when she broke up with me she left all our plants here and I couldn't let them die right, so I became their new plant mom. Take a seat. Do you want something to drink?" 

"No thanks I'm good.". Everything suddently felt so formal, weird, unusual and almost impossible. I was hesitant to sit down but she sat next to me with a glass of water so I figured I would sit too. 

"Well...this is akward. We both know what we're here for but it's.. a little akward." I manage. 

"So, I guess we should start talking about..it...then?" 

"Yes, yes ofcourse." 

"So uhm, you know that we shoudln't do this. You shouldn't be here in the first place." 

"Yes, but, it's come to a point for me that the reason I'm failing is because I can't concentrate in your class anymore so I figured I would tell you to atleast give you a reason for my absent mind.", I chuckle trying to break the cold ambiance hanging between us. 

"Yes, I reasoned that far and then when I started thinking about it more and more I realised maybe I was thinking about it so much not because I didn't want it and was scared for it to happen but because I wanted it and was scared for it to happen." 

"I was very scared too, you are the first girl I ever had feelings for and I am very insecure about them." 

"I move closer to her seeking for her comfort. 

"You shouldn't feel insecure about them, you should accept it." 

"Then let me! This isn't helping for me to accept it!" 

"Do you think I want it like this? I like you I really do, just too bad I have the obligatory to explain physics to you or I would have kissed every inch of your body already." 

"You're not teaching me now, so go on, do what you want to." 

"Think for a second!" 

"I have thought for nights without end already ok! Just this one night. One night to sooth our desires and then we'll go back to teacher-student relationship but for one night we have to let it go to release our bodies ok?". We are both crying by this point because the only thing keeping us apart is the law. 

"They wont find out, we won't tell anyone and this night will just be a more realistic dream, ok. Please miss G for once give in, once I am begging you.". I lean closer my nose touching hers, hands resting on the back of her neck. I sit on my knees on the couch her legs in between mine. 

"Please give in, please they won't find out." 

"On one condition." 

"Ok, whatever it is I promise I wont let you down I will fulfill it." 

"You're grades aren't so good right now for physics, I want you to get them above 70% by the end of the semester ok?" 

"Oh, you don't know how many hours I will spent learning physics" I smile and our lips tough. 

My hands are on the back of her head playing with her hair as her palms cup my chin. It feels so good but there's a part of me filling with guild so I pull away. 

"Amazing" I say proudly looking in her eyes before pulling her closer again. She bites my lower lip and I gasp letting in her tongue to play with mine only to realise I have never had my first kiss like this. I gently bite her lower lip making her pull away to look in my eyes. She looks happy, I made her happy. 

"I am sorry if it was bad..I..never kissed before.", shock in her eyes, 

"Omg, you're first kiss is your teacher! Oh I'm sorry if it was all a mist-" I pull her in again inviting my tongue into her mouth. 

"No, you're not just a teacher, you're the best girl I've ever met and I love you so much, believe me." the kiss gets more intense and her hands are exploring my waist to my hips whilst I am running mine in circles across her belly. Suddently my ringtone kills the mood. 

"Oh shit it's my mom!" 

"Pick up, you're in tutoring alright." 

"Yeah" 

"Hey mom, what's wrong?" 

"It's 7pm where are you?" 

"Tutoring. It's 7 already?!" 

"Yes so I want you to come home immediatly and tell me the truth cause the school closed 2 hours ago." 

"Oh shit we must have lost track of time I am at miss G's house I'll ask her to bring me back home. K?" 

"I hope so and I better see good grades on your report card with the amount of tutoring you've been getting or you'll be in serious trouble young lady." 

"Trust me mom, my physics grades will be spotless." I smirk at G who understands everything. The call hangs up and she brings me back home. She parks 2 streets away from my house so we could kiss for the last 2 minutes ever. With tears in her eyes she drives a little closer to my house and we hug before I leave; waving as I walk home. This was it. This was all I was gonna get from her. All she was gonna get from me. Mom could tell somethings wrong with me but I quickly run past her up to my room to cry under my blankets. 

I waited untill 1am to call Joseph to tell him everything but change my mind and tell him everyhting except the 'me coming over to her house and everything that happend after' part. 

I trusted him but I would still tell him a crime I comitted so kept my mouth shut and went to bed. I tried atleast but I couldn't stop crying. I did the one thing I promised not to do and called G. 

"What's up it's 2am may I still sleep." 

"Oh so you can sleep? I have been crying all night." 

"I know, I had only just fallen asleep after all my tears were used." 

"I'm sorry, I want to come over, you don't live too far away right?" 

"It's dangerous, and 15mins away you know the way." 

" I do not care, I am coming over" I put on my white sneakers and left. Closing the door behind me, a small bag over my shoulder with my phone and wallet in it. 

I Tried the door to make sure it was locked and turned around putting on the flashlight on my phone to create some way to clear up the thick black world in front of me ready to start the journey...