Beneath the Surface

Chapter 24 - Happy place

"Look at the sun, it's so pretty."

I look at where he is pointing, seeing the beautiful colors fade into eachother, the sky having an orange glow and the clouds afar looking pink.

"It's truly beautiful.", I look him in the eyes. 

We are sitting on the rooftop of the apartement building he is staying in, looking out over the rest of the city, the rural area cut of by the sun drowning in all it's glory.

He looks back at me, a bright smile appearing on his soft face making his dimples show.

"Just like you.", he follows and I smile back at his sweet and small flirt.

"I missed these moments."

"Me too."

"Whenever I am with you I feel like I can live my life like in the movies."

 I don't know if it's the hormones, the person or the occasion but I feel emotional all the sudden.

"Joseph, you have to know you are the most amazing person to ever cross my path. I truly love you, I truly trust you. You make me feel amazing, burning with joy and never fail to make me smile. You make me feel at ease, safe and I can be myself."

I wipe away the single tear running down my cheeck.

"I always thought my life was useless, boring, sad and just a waste of space on this earth, and I felt dead, waiting to be burried, I was prepared for it, I was sure he would kill me and-"

I snif trying to hold back the tears ready to come down.

"But you made me live again."

He pushes me closer so our shoulders touch, his warm hand wrapping around my waist as I rest my head on his shoulder.

"Hey, it's okay.", he tells me in a soft tone of voice.

I turn my head just a little to look at his expression and am a bit shocked to see he is crying too.

"Joseph?"

"I am fine honey, just, nobody ever told me they loved me except you. Nobody ever saw the good in me except you."

"I don't wanna see you in tears, it's making me sad.", I say to him.

"It's happy tears sweety.", he comforts.

I blush but it's hard to notice as our faces our lid up by the now darker orange shining from the sun.

"And I feel like I should tell you more how gratefull I am to have you honey, I don't care that you hurt me, as long as you still want to hang out with me, do things with me, I am glad to have you here."

"I think you're my soulmate.", I say back, seemingly out of the blue.

"You think? I am sure of it."

The sad mood seamed to have ended and we are both dealing with the overly emotional aftermath of crying.

The playful mood.

"Wanna do something freaky?"

He asks, a slight grin on his smooth face making me feel a little anxious at what he is going to ask.

"Not really freaky but for us, yeah."

Before I could ask what he meant he took out a sigarette out his back pocket and stuck it between his front teeth as he cupped his free hand to make it light up.

Flabbergasted by his action I watch as he takes the first few puffs. He holds it betweeen his fingers on his right hand and brings it to me.

"Wanna try?"