Beneath the Surface

Chapter 17 - He's back!

I get woken up by the sound of someone trying to unlock my door. I quickly pick up my phone from my nightstand. It's 3am. 

"Who's there?" I ask curiously.

"Open up!"

"Joshua?" 

"I told you to never call me Joshua again now open up I've missed you!" 

"Don't wake up my parents please I am already coming!" 

I open the door and he immediatly picks me up and swings me around. 

"Ooooh I've missed you so hard sweetheart!"

"So how was America?"

"Great! I think they really liked my music...I mean they were chearing and dancing and it was just a bunch of fun."

 "I'm so happy for you...and I hate to say this but I have exams starting tomorrow so let's go to sleep."

"Sure, I'm so tired anyway, like you would be able to sleep on a plane."

"I guess. I haven't ever been on a plane so I wouldn't know but I trust your opinion very strongly." 

"Wow, you're English has become way better in the meantime." 

"Not really though, I don't know but I know my physics has." 

"Oh you still obsessed with you're teacher?" 

"I sure am!". 

I was pretending, pretending because I hadn't told him we were dating. I hadn't asked him to cover yet but I didn't just wanna tell him so decided to keep quiet about it. I throw him his pair of pj's still left folded in my closet after mom washed it the first week of september after he had left. 

"You kept these?" 

"I sure did." I said with a proud smile on my face not sure why. 

"You slept in them?" 

"Every night.". He looked sceptical and I laughed it of. 

"Joking obv" 

"Luckely." 

"Would you really mind it if I did?" 

"Naah. Just wanted to know how hard you missed me and how obsessed you are over me but looks like all your attention has gone to G.""

Stop it already and get in bed I wanna sleep ok?!" 

"Wow jeez, calm down miss tired.". 

I know he's playing me and I have to go along with it but it feels unnatural, like cheating. 

"Let's just sleep now shall we?" 

"K". With that he cuddles up to me and wraps his hands around my waist. 'Only G is allowed to do this!' I want to say but decide not to. 

"Goodnight!" is all I manage.

"Goodnight!". 

It's the next morning 8am and I only know this because the annoying sound of my alarm is going of. "Shut up!" I say at it then laughing when I realised I was talking to my phone. "Who you talking to?" "My alarm" he also laughs now. "Could've told me you set an alarm." "Isn't saying I've got an exam enough reason to think I would have an alarm set." "Maybe" 

I get dressed and he walks to school with me. "I'll see you soon, I'll text you but good luck today, k sweety" "K, honey" he makes a face that describes disust and laughs before flicking my nose and walking of waving his hand before turning around the corner and dissapaering from my view. A ping on my phone makes my smile fade untill I read it's G: "Goodluck sunshine, I know you can do it, call me when you're done ok?" "OK, thx, see you" I text back and walk into school to my class. 

The exam went well, I am now in my room studying for French tomorrow and it's all going very well untill I get a call from Joseph. "How did it go?" "Great, studying for French right now" "Oui, oui, dis-le quand tu as besoin d'aide." "Oui, oui mister French, I will" I laugh and I bet he is too. "Anyways, Imma study so I can finish this and take a break before revisioning again." "Again? You already did all of this?" "Joseph, I knew you would be coming back in my exams and I know you damn well enough to know you are going to disturb me to talk about your trip wich is amazing but I can't fail because of this." "Smart, indeed, so I think I will let you study now. Au revoir chérie" "Au revoir José" I sighs before hanging up. 

I've just had dinner and mom and dad are to a work dinner so I obviously asked G to come over and - oh- the bell just rang so that must be her. 

"Hey honey!"

"Hey sunshine"

"Come in!"

I let her in and close the door behind her. She doesn't wait and immediatly kisses me. I bring her up to my room and we do our usual make out session before watching another episode of stranger things. We cuddle up and lean against the headboard, curtains closed and a fuzzy white woolen blanket to keep us warm. The last episode of stranger things season 4 is over and I can see she's crying so I lean in to hug her and she let's herself slide down untill she's fully on her back and I'm gently caressing her chest placing kisses on her neck and collarbones and between her breasts and on her belly button and just everywhere untill her cries stop and turn into quiet mumbled moans and whimpers. Untill we're only half-clothed and kissing intimately. Untill I am now the one laying on my back and our bare tummies are touching eachother and she's stroking the back of her hand on my tigh and drawing circles on it. I turn her over again to hide what I am really feeling and start kissing her neck sucking it slowly my hand stroking her hips and the other one unclasping her belt and pulling down her pants untill- the door opens and we both look up. "Oh shit I'm so- I'm sorry"

"Well that's an original way to meet Joseph" I laugh but she doesn't seem to like the joke probably because we are now both left in a pretty emberassing state and Joseph is still staring at us. 

"Can you atleast stop staring Josh and let us get dressed." 

"Yes, yeah please get dressed, but no, wait I- sorry - I will leave" 

"Never seen you that nervous." 

G is only starting to look more annoyed and I sent Joseph away. I mean, no I didn't but that's what he's calling it. He actually uninvited himself and after only 10 seconds he's already out the front door. 

"I'm sorry honey" I try to make it up.

"Not your fault, just annoying. It was finally getting good and now-" a single tear runs down her face.

"Sweety don't cry, hey it'll be alright ok?" 

"Ok, but I - I just I, never loved anyone this much and I-I thought tonight might be THE night, you know." 

Silence. I stay silented and oh god why don't I say anything. "I-" I stutter, scared to tell her that I am still not ready for what she is expecting of me. "I am not ready for it yet, so I'm sorry if you were already hoping that, I understand if you don'-" 

"Don't say what I think you're gonna say. I won't leave you, never. I am sorry for making you feel this way." I hug her and we eventually fall asleep.