I'm Fucking Fine, Okay? - EraserMic -

11

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Suicide

CHAPTER 11

'Oh one more thing, class 1A. The villain's MO is to switch bodies, deal lethal damage, then switch back at the last possible second. So be careful. She's trying to kill Aizawa'. The whole class nods getting themselves ready.

I stand absolutely shocked. Out of all the situations, I never throught this would happen. Why can't people just let a guy kill themselves in peace?

I sigh. There's no point in even trying to convince them I'm their teacher. I immediately dart my eyes over every single one of my pupils. Okay. Just don't fucking blink. I pull my goggles over my head.

They immediately run at me. Backugo reaches me first. He tries to use his quirk, failing. 'Fuck sake!' He yells, as I use my capture weapon to grab him. 'She's used erasure!' The rest of the class continue to power on through. I feel somebody kick me form behind, but I quickly turn, hitting a pressure point on Sato's neck so he falls unconcious.

Next is Kirishima. He delivers a powerful blow to my stomach, but I use my capture weapon to grab him. Okay. Two of the powerhouses are down. I bend over slightly. Damn. Even without hardening that kid packs a solid punch. 

I hear Momo yell 'Make her blink!' Before I know it, Uraraka has kicked me in the side of the head, hard, making me blink. SHIT.

I hear explosions. Shit. Backugo. I immediately dart my eyes over everyone again. Was that everyone? I feel like I'm missing some...

'DARK SHADOW!' Ah right, of course it's fucking Tokoyami. I spin around, desperately trying to find him with my eyes as I land on top of a lampost. WHERE IS HE?

Dark Shadow rams into me, shoving me backwards into a building. I immediately drop Backugo and Kirishima - can't be hurting the kids. I use the momentum to pull myself fowards, using my capture weapon to avoid the building. I blink. I guess now it's a case of who's faster. I run through my head. The only kids that can propel themselves fast are Backugo, Midoriya...

Before I even finish my line of thinking, I see Iida gaining ground. HOW DID I MISS IIDA? And Sero swinging behind him. I do a backflip, catching a glimpse of them, and turn fowards. I hear both coming to a stop. Okay. KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN.

I hear cracking sounds. It couldn't be Backugo, he wouldn't have got out of my capture weapon in time. Unless...

Ice. God fucking damn. I smile, weirdly impressed by how far my kids have come. Again, I glance to the side, clocking Todoroki. He slides down, angry. Okay, I think I'm out of the woods. I continue running. And running. Eyes open.

- morning - 

The sun is finally up. I'm sitting on a roof top, looking down at the cars below. As fun as this would be, I don't want to traumatise some poor driver. Plus, the impact could kill a pedestrian.

I look back over to my flat. It seems like it's empty, no action has happened within the last hour. I swing over to it, landing softly througn a window.

Best place to hide is right under their noses. I see Coal and Honey come sprinting towards me, rubbing themselves against my legs. I smile. Gunna miss you two rascals.

I begin to write a note, then scrunch it up, throwing it away. Can't be arsed with all that shit. Instead, I simply write:

Coal - Zashi

Honey - Nem

Take care of them please guys.

Okay. Time to die. You know all you do is bring people down. You're a shit teacher, an even worse hero, and a terrible friend. When you disappear, the world won't even notice.

I stand, contemplating how I want to do this. Knives? Jump off a bridge? Drown? Overdose? I don't think I have anything to overdose on.

I walk through my flat, looking for anything sharp. I go into my secret stash, but everything is fucking missing! Bloody Hizashi child proofing my flat. I look in my kitchen drawers...NOTHING. I go into my office to my desk. SHIT! I don't even have any PENS. He was really fucking thorough.  

I head back into my room, looking for the grey belt that goes with my hero costume. Nope. Nada. Absolutely NOTHING. I'm about to give up when I look down...my capture weapon. How ironic. The very think I use to stop people dying will ultimately lead to my own death.

I shoo the cats out of my bedroom, not wanting them to see what happens next. I tidy up my room a bit, so that the crime scene photos look at least half decent. I use my capture weapon one last time, tying it around a beam in my bedroom, forming a noose.

I sit on the edge of my bed, going over my life.

You're a quirkless nobody...

Flashback, 10 Years old.

'There he is! The quirkless nobody!' He makes singing nettles grow, then shoves me into them. Everything stings. 'I-I have a quirk'. I squeak out, as I try and crawl out of the nettles. The main bully laughs. I activate my quirk.

'Aizawa, we don't need a quirk to beat you. You're that pathetic!' He pulls me out the nettles, punching me repeatedly in the stomach. This makes me blink. Soon everyone is attacking me. Ripping at me. Clawing. Punches and kicks mixed with various quirks.

Eventually they all leave, I open my eyes, and see that I am in a field of stinging nettles wearing nothing. I begin the painful journey home.

You don't have what it takes...

Flashback, 13 years old.

'Mum, I want to go to UA'. She turns around, looking at me. 'Oh honey, that's a good dream' she smiles at me. 'B-but I want it to be more of a dream. I want it to be real. I-I could eliminate enemy quirks and-'

'-and what dear? Fight them? Sweetheart, you may have a wonderful quirk, but you don't have any combat experience. What would you do in a fist fight?' I look down at my shoes.

'You just don't have what it takes hon. However, I think you'd excel on the support course!'

'Yeah, good idea mum'.

You can't save anyone...

Flashback, 16 years old

I Put the umbrella over the cat in the pouring rain. I don't know how to save the cat. I just hope he's okay.

I hear a meowing, but continue walking.

Flashback, 17 years old

I stand looking at the body bag, blood leaking from the edge. Hizashi puts his hand on my shoulder, trying to move me away.

'Sho, you need to step away' I brush him off. 'Sho, come on'. He gently takes my hand, pulling me away.

Flashback, 30 years old

I keep fighing Dabi. Dodging his blue flames. But then another appears, and another. Suddenly somebody screams. 'BACKUGO, NO!!!'

I turn around to see Compress disappearing through a portal with the real Dabi, holding Backugo hostage.

You couldn't even save Backugo.

I snap to reality, and begin to cry. I'm useless. I've always been useless, I never should of become a hero, like mum said.

Time to leave. Nobody wants you here.

I pull up a chair, standing on it, putting my head through the noose.

kill yourself.

I jump.