The Only Man I Ever Loved

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📍Paris, France

'Will you be making another book?' A girl with glasses stood up to ask a question

'Nothing is in motion yet. I guess I am waiting to be inspired.' I smile to the girl and then directing my eyeline to another young man who has a question

'Who is Charlie?' He asked

'Charlie was my best friend.'

'Is Romeo inspired by Charlie.' He asked again

'Some parts of him are yes.' I smile

'What parts are based on him.' The girl with glasses stood up again.

'I had always know Charlie, we were inseparable. As we grew up we grew apart. Once, he hurt my feelings that bad I moved away, he hurt me. He was my first love. We don't talk anymore, but I know he's okay? Juliet feels betrayed by Romeo's actions when she finds he had fallen in love with another woman. Juliet realises that their friendship is built of false promises.'  I smile

'Would you ever like to see your book made into a movie?' Another girl asked

'It would be amazing to see something I created up on a big screen. It would be a dream.' I say, 'Anymore questions?'

'What inspired you to create this book?' An older male voice spoke up, I looked into the distance but I couldn't see when the voice came from.

'Heart break.' I responded, 'Even though, I have never had a real relationship. Flings here and there but nothing solid.

'This Charlie broke your heart?' The voice spoke into from the back of the room.

'He did.' I say looking toward the back of the room. 'I'll be around for another 15 minute if you want me to sign anything please make yours self known.

I spent the next 13 minutes taking photos and signing my book for the fans who had come to the reading. 3 years ago I had never expected the book to have taken off like this.

'Will you sign mine for me?' The voice who had asked the question asked.

I took the book without looking at him. 'And what is your name.' I giggle signing the book

'Charlie.' He said, sending a chill down my spine. I looked up into his mesmerising green eyes. Charles smiled  down at me, dimples exposed.

I signed the book and handed it back to him, plastering a fake smile on my face, little did he know how much I had just embarrassed my self. 'How did you know i was here?' I mumbled

'Social media.' He said 'I think we should talk?'

I looked around the now empty room, glancing at my wrist, 'You've got 7 minutes.'

'You wrote a book about me? Then dedicated the book to me.' He questioned flicking through the pages

'I wrote a book about us and how you betrayed me!' I snap, taking the book from him. He didn't deserve to read it.

'You still dedicated it to me.' He smiled. 'I've read the book, it's good.'

'Nice.' I frown 'What do you want.'

'Why did you never tell me? Why didn't you tell me how you felt?' He said taking a seat on a chair from the reading.

'By the time I had figured it out, I was too late. You had already met Violet and there was nothing I could have done.' I sigh looking to the floor. 'I tried my hardest to be the girl you wanted. I changed myself for you. But she came along and well you know the rest.'

'Stelly. It had always been you. I had always loved you.' He said softly.

'So why did you choose her over me. I was your best friend Charlie. I would have done anything for you. I wanted to give you the world. I knew everything about you, your goal, your achievements, your secrets. I thought I knew you but I was wrong. The Charles I knew would have picked Violet over me, the Charles I knew wouldn't done this to me. The Charles I loved wouldn't have hurt me.' I snap.

'I was wrong to do that I know. I was young and I was naive, I threw my self at the first girl that gave me some attention. I thought I liked her but I didn't. I realised what I had when you was gone. I realised how much I had fucked up.' Charles sighs

'I was always there for you Charles. I had always been there for you. Whenever you needed anything, I dropped everything to be there. Do you know how pathetic that is? Do you even realise how much power you had over me? I have spent the last 5 years convincing my self that I don't love you, that I never loved you.' A tear start rolling down my cheek but I quickly wiped that away.

'You are my best friend Stelly. I would do anything for you. I would kill anyone that hurt you.' He moves closer to me.

'So where were you when I actually needed your help? Where were you when I got an eating disorder and I hospitalised my self? Where were you when I was hurting myself because I could never be the one you wanted? Where were you when I published my book? Where were you when I needed my friend? You was no where! So don't come back into my life acting like we are 15 again, you choose her over me.' I push away from the table feeling a fire in my stomach.

'I had no idea of any of these things. Incase you have forgot, you left me. You packed your stuff and got the first flight out of Monaco . You didn't say goodbye. You blocked my number so I couldn't call you. It was like you disappeared. Your parents wouldn't tell me where you went. How was I supposed to find you? You disappeared off the face of the earth!' Charles follows me around the room.

'You drove me away Charles. Loving you consumed me to the breaking point. You broke me in many ways.' I pointed my finger. 'Now get out. Your 7 minuets is up.'

'I can't leave you like this.'

'Charles. Go!' I whisper

'Stelly. I can't.'

'Just get out. I can't see you, it's too much to soon.' I snap

'You've had 5 years. I am not going any where' He comes closer to me to calm me down

'Charles. Please.' I beg, 'Just leave me alone.'