The Only Man I Ever Loved

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Present Day
📍My Apartment, Amsterdam

I sighed as sat down on my desk in my one bedroom apartment. I flicked open the diary in front of my and picked up my pink ink pen. The words Dear Diary stared blankly back at me

Dear Diary,
Why is my life so crap? I guess that is the question everyone asks themselves these days. I am 23, I should be out living my best life but instead I find my self sat in a dimly lit room. My lease on the apartment runs out in 2 weeks and I still haven't found an apartment to move into. Should I stay in Amsterdam or should I move somewhere new?
•London?
• Paris?
•Barcelona?
•Prague?
•Gdańsk?
•Kos?
•Edinburgh?
Part of me wants to go home? But what if I ran into him??? I would know what to do if I saw him. Some nights when I can't fall asleep, I want to stalk him social media but I tell my self it's better to not taunt my self with images of him and Violet. I unfollowed him when I left Monaco. He made his bed, he had to lie in it. He never made any attempt to contact me either, none that I am aware of. Who am I to kid? If he saw me he wouldn't even remember me. I wonder what he is like these days, what he does for a living? What his hope and dreams are? I wonder the most if he is happy? I wonder if he ever thinks of me?
Anyways enough about him. It's my birthday on Monday, so either way I am going home. I say enough about him like we don't share the same birthday, so obviously I'll think about him. I haven't seen him in 5 years, why does he hold so much power over me?

I closed the diary after that. I only allow my self to think of Charles for a maximum of 5-7 minutes a day. He was my first love, even though it wasn't reciprocated. He is the only man I have ever loved to this day.

I could hear a commotion from outside of my door, the movement outside deafened me as my appartment was deadly silent. I tip toed over to the door and peeped out of the door hole. A man and a woman stood outside of my door, I couldn't tell who they were. Eventually a knock followed. I counted to five and then opened the door.

'Hello?' I questioned opening the door still not knowing who these people were.

'Hi.' The lady spoke. 'We are ever so sorry to disturb you. I am Kelly.' Kelly smiled softly. 'And this is Max.' She point to him.

'Hello Kelly. Hello Max. I am Estella.' I smile back.

'Please don't think we are weirdos.' Max laughed 'But we live down the hallway from you and we have seen you a couple of time and we wanted to introduce ourselves.'

'Yeah. At first we didn't believe it was actually you but it is you.' Kelly said and I pulled a face to question what she meant. 'Sorry, I mean we love your book 'a modern day Romeo and Juliet.' Big fans of the book. Our love of the book is what brought us closer.' She smiles wider at me

'Aw my goodness' I smiled, 'Sorry, where is my manners! Would you like to come in?' I ask the couple at me door and the both come in. 'Sorry about the mess. I wasn't expecting company.' I point to the boxes

'Unpacking?' Max asked taking a seat at the breakfast bar.

'Re Packing.' I sigh 'My lease is up in 2 weeks.'

'Where are you planning on moving too?' Kelly asked

'Haven't decided yet.' I smile pouring 3 cups of coffee. 'I think I am going to travel again after Christmas so I might just move home?'

'Where's Home? Kelly said taking a sip of the coffee

'Monaco.' I say. 'I hate it there.'

'We have property in Monaco. We love it.' Max says

'Bad memories there.' Is all I say 'Anyways with can I do for you.'

'We want to gift you this.' Max says placing a small box on the table.

I look at the box and then back at the strangers sat in front of my. I pull it open and I see something that looks like a pass with the words RED BULL plastered on the front of it. 'What is it?' I giggle awkwardly.

'It's a VIP Red Bull Pass' Max says 'For Austin.'

'Austin?' I question. 'I am sorry but I don't follow.'

'For you to come and watch the race.' Kelly chuckles softly

'Race?' I question

'Formula One? Circuit of the Americas? Austin, Texas?' Max says

'Oh, for me to watch? In person? With you two?'

'With me.' Kelly says 'Max will be driving.'

'Driving?' I say earning a chuckle from them. 'You are a Formula One Driver?'

'I am.' He smiles

'I've been sat here drinking coffee with Max Verstappen?' I say pulling away from the counter. 'Oh my god. Wait, why you do you want to give these too me?' I said

'Like we mentioned, you brought your book into our life and it made us close and made us fall in love. This is our repayment.' Kelly smiles. 'I hope you don't find it weird.'

I paused before answering there offer. 'Well I've never been to Texas before so....' I smile and Kelly runs over and gives me a hug.

'I can't wait.' She smiles.

Kelly entered her number into my phone and said she would text me all the information. I gave them a thank you hug and they left my apartment. Leaving me back on my own. It felt good to be happy for once. For once I had something to look forward to. Just for once.