The Only Man I Ever Loved

🧚‍♀️T W E N T Y N I N E🧚‍♀️

I hadn't even opened my eyes yet and my head a pounding. I slightly opened my eyes and the sun was blinding me. I glanced over to the wall and the clock read 12pm. I could feel Charles grip stiffen as I moved, the grip reminded me that he was there. I knew I needed to get up, my stomach was growling and surely that would wake him up from his deep sleep.

I slowly got out of bed and made my way over to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and somehow in my drunken state I had managed to take off my make up and got changed out of my clothes. I stared at myself in the reflection of the mirror. I was wearing one of Charles tops that fitted more like a dress on me.

I lifted it up to look at my stomach area. It was not secrecy I had gained some weight and began comfort eating. Stretch marks had began to appear across my stomach. I pulled out the scales and laid them on the floor. I needed to know how much I weighed. I felt the biggest I had felt in ages. I hope on the scales and nervously peered down the numbers. I had gained 10 pounds , it may not sound like a big deal to some people but to me it was the end of the world.

'Stelly? I need to use the toilet.' I heard Charles call from the other side of the door. I panicked and jumped off the scales, carefully placing them back in the cupboard, out of sight. I opened the door to reveal a messy haired Charles just wearing boxers.

'Sorry.' I said coming out the room, 'Bathroom is all yours love.'

I headed down to the kitchen to make some food for Charles and I. I stopped in my tracks as I saw my dad sat in the kitchen with a sandwich.

'Papa.' I said entering the kitchen, pulling the t shirt further down. 'I didn't know you was home.'

'It's Thursday. I work from home on Thursdays.' Papa responded reading the newspaper in front of him.

'I am sorry papa. If we woke you up last night.' I apologised whilst heading to the cupboard to pull out some bread.

'You did wake us up. Creeping in with Charles at 4am.' Papa placed his newspaper down. 'You were both giggling to each other and it seemed like you had both had a great evening. You sounded like your old self. That is all we want, for you to be you. Happy and Healthy.' Papa finally smiled. I ran round the table and gave him a big hug. It was unexpected as I am not really cuddly with my papa.

'I am trying my very best.' I smiled, 'I love you Papa.'

'So what did you two get up to last night?' Papa asked me as I went back to making a sandwich.

'We went for some food with Kelly and Max and then we went clubbing.' I said buttering the bread.

'Oh to be 24 and young.' Papa laughed.

I laughed back at his response and opened the dishwasher and saw my phone tucked away in the top shelf. 'Had the dishwasher not been on this morning?' I asked taking my phone out.

'It wasn't full enough when Mama left for work. I was actually supposed to turn it on. Why'd you ask?' Papa was back to reading his paper.

'My phone is in here.' I chucked to myself unlocking the phone.

My phone was open on the notes and I must have wrote a note at 3:26am

'ADJ CHAT MSTTI ME'

'DI NPT FOTGWY'

I had no idea what that means, the message looks like it could written in another language. I laughed myself because there is nothing more confusing than a woman's notes app.

I placed the phone under my arm and carried the sandwiches up to my room. Charles was laid in bed with pillow covering his head.