The Only Man I Ever Loved

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📍Present Day

'This is Pierre Gasly.' Charles introduces me to someone who looked very familiar. 'Pierre this is Stelly.'

'Hello.' Pierre extended his hand for me to shake. 'So nice to finally meet you.'

'Finally?' I question taking his hand and shaking it.

'Charles always talks about you.' He winked at Charles.

'I am going to talk to Carlos really quick, I will be back.' Charles smiled before disappearing.

'You don't remember me do you?' Pierre asked sliding a drink across the bar to me

'You look familiar, but I can't place where I know you from.' I say taking a sip of the drink. 'Vodka. How'd you know?'

'One word for you. Ibiza.' Pierre said

At first, I had no idea as to what he was referring to but then it clicked. Ibiza. 3 years ago. 'Oh my god.' I through my hands in front of my face in an embarrassed manner. 'That was you!' Of course my one night stand in Ibiza was Pierre Gasly, a friend of Charles. I am beginning to think this world is not so big after all.

'Ouch.' Pierre exaggerates. 'You don't remember me.'

'No I remember.' I wink at him. 'I am so embarrassed.'

'Don't be. If you ever want to do that again, you know where to find me.' Pierre shoots me a cheeky smile and wink

'Is that how you ask all the ladies to sleep with you?' I question drinking the last of my drink.

'Just the ones I really want. Besides, it's just sex.' He laughs. 'How do you know Charles.'

'We grew up together.' I respond, my eyes make contact with Max and Kelly who are making their way to the bar.

'See I told you she was here.' Max nudged Kelly when they were in ear range.

'Here I am.' I say as they join Pierre and I at the bar.

'Estella, you look amazing!' Kelly pulls me into a hug. 'Who are you here with!'

'Well actually I'm here with Charles.' I say feeling my cheeks blushing.

'Is Charles going to get some tonight?' Kelly raises her eyebrows at me obviously indicating to sex.

'If he plays his cards right.' I smirk back.

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'Well thank you for a good night Charles.' I smile as we appear to be stood at my hotel door. 'I will see you on the track.' I smile

'Thank you for not rejecting me and saying yes.' He smiles back to me. 'Don't forget the hat.'

'Oh I won't.' I smile at him as I swipe my hotel key. 'Goodnight Char.' I open the door

'Goodnight Stelly.' He smiles at me.

I shut the door and the first thing I need to do is get these shoes off of my feet. I know beauty is pain and all that jazz but this is too much. As I flopped on the bed letting the room spin, I hear a knock at the door. I sigh and pull myself off the bed to get the door.

I pulled the door open to see Charles still stood there.
'To the grave?' He question with his arm above his head learning against the door. I knew what was coming, I knew it. Part of me wanted to resist it. I knew I should, I don't want to come across as easy. The other part of me wanted him, wanted all of him. That part won.

'To the grave Charlie.' I said as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, pulling him down to my level for a kiss.

He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him as he carried me into the room, kicking the door shut with his foot. He took me over to the bed and laid me down, ripping my clothing off my body. I began by undoing his trouser bottoms, making sure to rub my hand across his dick to tease him. We laid the naked, looking into each other's eyes, with a million thoughts behind our eyes. I felt him move his hand to my heat that was growing wetter and wetter by the moment. He slipped his fingers inside of me, pumping and rubbing it, sending floods of sensations through my body. My hand found its way to his dick where I began pumping it. My mouth then found its way down there and began sucking his dick. The moans coming from his mouth were enough to make me continue. I pulled away and he looked at me with a hungrily expression on his face. He rolled me over so now he was on top me, fighting to be dominant. He kissed me on my neck and slowly made his way down, going further and further until he stoped.

'Stelly.' He whispered quietly, quietly so I could only just hear him. 'Why?'

Why what? Is what I first thought, but I already knew he had seen the scars on my legs. I felt ashamed of my body, I felt disgusted in my skin. My throat was dry and I didn't know what to do.

'I'm sorry.' I said with a lump forming in my throat.

'What are you sorry for?' Charles tried to calm me down by lying next to me.

'I've ruined the moment now.' I wipe a rouge tear out of the way

'Don't be stupid, Stelly.' Charles wipes another tear from my eye. 'Could you tell me why you did that? Why did you hurt yourself?'

I paused. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't owe him anything. But I knew he wouldn't give up and I knew that the more I was around him, the more he would've asked. 'I didn't know what else to do. What else could I have done, the only man I had ever loved was in love with another woman and I was hurt, I was so fucking hurt.'

'You was in love with me?' He questioned with a tone that made me angry.

'Yes, of course I was in fucking love with you Charlie. Every time I wanted to tell you, it was always Violet this Violet that. The night you came to my house to tell me we couldn't be friends anymore, I was going to tell you how I felt. I knew you wouldn't feel the same because you had already got a girlfriend, but at least you'd have known.' I sigh rolling off the bed to put some clothes on. 'That night was the first time it happened. I stopped about 1 year ago. I still have them thoughts but I can control it though now.'

'Do you still love me?' Charles asked. He was still laid there naked. I was now change into my comfy clothes as the moment had now gone.

'I don't know.' I honestly replied.

'Estella.' He started but then stopped. I knew this was serious as he had called me Estella. 'I was in love with you. I have admired you all my life. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever met. You're the person I think of before I fall asleep. I cannot stop thinking about you. These 5 years we have spent apart, the heart ache I have felt, I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy. I was in love with you. But something happened, you started getting closer with other people and well you kind of left me behind. You started becoming friends with people who were as smart as you, who shared the same passions as you. That's how I met Violet. That's why I chose Violet. That will be the biggest mistake I ever make. I am miserable without you. I need you in my life. Because deep down, I love you.' Charles smiled at me as I was stood gobsmacked at this revelation. 'I never planned for this to happen, I thought it was obvious we would end up together. We are soulmates.'

'Do you really think that? Do you really believe there is a possibility of you and I?' I ask avoiding making eye contact

'I do.' He rubs his thumb against my hand. 'You and I, To the Grave.'