The Only Man I Ever Loved

🧚‍♀️T W E N T Y F I VE🧚‍♀️

📍Monza

'Girl, are you okay?' Paige asked as I had stopped in my tracks. I was definitely due a period, but these pre period cramps were going to the next level. I was keeled over in agony. After a few moments they had passed.

'Yeah. Just had a bad cramp.' I responded brushing Paige's concern off.

'Well we are almost at the Ferrari garage now.' Paige said coming back and linking arms with me.

'I'm fine.' I said walking toward the garage.

I saw Charles talking to a mechanic. Today was qualifying, Charles was 100% feeling the pressure today as Monza was special to him and Ferrari. I didn't want to interrupt so we directed over to Carlos.

'Estella! Paige.' Carlos greeted, 'it's so lovely to see you both.'

'How have you been Carlos?' Paige asked

'I've been great. I have been waiting for this race since Barcelona.' Carlos responded to Paige's question. 'You don't look so good though Estella.'

'I think I am getting a stomach bug.' I reposted shrugging my shoulders

'Yeah, that and lady problems.' Paige said

'Say no more.' Carlos laughed.

I felt a pair of arms wrapping around my waist. I knew it was him. I could smell his aftershave and I could feel his presence. 'Hey' I greeted him pulling him into a hug and he planted a soft kiss on my cheek.

'I've missed you.' Charles rubbed his hand on my cheek.

'I missed you. But I'm here now.' I nudged his shoulder.

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We left the men in the Ferrari garage and decided to go on a walk and see if we could find Kelly. My stomach was doing somersaults, I couldn't figure out if it was nerves or if I was coming down with something like the flu.

'You look a bit pale.' Paige pointed out, making me feel slightly insecure now.

'Thanks love.' I sarcastically responded.

'I'm glad you're not sharing a room with me, I don't want whatever it is you have got.' Paige continued. 'When was the last time you ate something?'

'I don't know, Tuesday? Wednesday?' I responded the days had all blurred into one at this point.

'Estella!' Paige slapped my arm. 'We are not going down this road again.'

'What road? We have never been down her!' I pointed down the pitlane, but Paige was stood shaking her head.

'I was here the first time. The time you put yourself in the hospital because you wasn't eating! I won't watch you do it again.' Paige said wearing an emotional expression.

I wrapped my arms around her. 'I am better now P. I just don't have an appetite. Everytime I try to eat, I feel sick.'

'So you're pregnant?' Paige asked, somehow looking happy

'Don't be ridiculous P. Never, well defiantly not now.' I laughed still hugging her.

'Well this looks cozy.' We hear a familiar female voice.

'Get in here Kel.' I extend my arm to Kelly who is watching Paige and I in the middle of the pit walk.

'You don't have to tell me twice.' Kelly laughs

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Charles qualified p2. He had the p1 spot on his mind for tomorrow. I wasn't up for walking or going out to partying, which wasn't like me at all. This tummy bug was turning me into an old lady.

'Paige said you haven't been eating' Charles appeared from the bathroom of our hotel room wearing nothing but a towel.

'How could you possibly known that Mr Leclerc?' I frown at him. 'You've been racing most of the day and then doing media duties, how have you had time to talk to Paige?'

'I have my ways.' He wriggles his eyebrows at me, making me chuckle. 'Seriously, you need to eat. Is there anything you fancy?'

I pause and think really hard, like my life depended on it. 'Banana bread sounds good?' I finally speak

'Banana bread? You don't like bananas!' Charles exclaims, he wasn't wrong

'But that's what I fancy to eat!' I remarked, attempting to get off the bed but a cramp shot through my body making me cry out in pain.

'What wrong?' Charles asked, a concerned expression was across his face.

'I've got cramp.' I said, 'and I think I've got a stomach bug.'

He wrapped his arms around me pulling in for a hug. He gently stroked his hands up and down my back, comforting me. 'Better?' He questioned.

'Everything is better with you.' I kissed him on the lips because it was nothing but the truth

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📍Race Day

'I need to know.' Paige ask as we sat in the grandstand watching the race. 'How is the sex?'

'Paige.' I scold her. 'The best I've ever had.' I giggle

'Did you get some last night?' Paige whispered.

'No.' I whispered back. 'We got some snacks and watched some TV. We fell asleep cuddling.'

'That is too cute.' Paige squealed. 'So you finally ate?'

'I snacked, if that counts.' I gave her a look to say shush I'm watching my boyfriend.

'I'll take it.' Paige continued eating her crisps. 'Are you feeling better?'

'No.' Is all I said. In fact I felt worse, the pains in my stomach were constant. I felt sick all night after the snacks. I was drained of energy, I wanted to be in bed resting, but I wanted to be here to support my man.

It was around lap 46 and I started to feel even more sick. My back was drenched in sweat. I knew it was a hot day, but I felt like I was overheating. I was that hot I could feel the sweat running down my skin. I headed down to the Ferrari garage as I knew that there would air on in there. At Lap 49, the room started to spin, I could keep focused, all my senses were becoming one. People were trying to talk to me but I couldn't focus on anything. Paige was holding my hand, she was asking me questions but I couldn't hear her. I look at the screen, it was lap 51, it was almost over. But then I felt it. I looked down at my laps and there was blood just pouring down my legs.

'Somebody needs to call an ambulance.' I could finally hear Paige's voice, it was like I had been submerged under water. 'You are okay E, just keep breathing.'
There was more and more blood falling my down my legs. I was embraced and confused. I had no idea what this was or what it could have been. I hated blood and I had never been good with it. My white dress was now stained red. Paige had been instructed to lay me down on the floor and she did so. I felt so suffocated. I could feel myself drifting in and out of consciousness.

'I need Charles.' I breathed to Paige as I was get wheeled into an ambulance.

'His race engineer had told him and he is going to meet us at the hospital.' Paige grabbed my hands.

But none of that mattered because I want Charles now. Charles was the only person who could make me feel better. Because everything is better when I am with Charles