Lyanna's Perspective
“Is it too small or what? You know I can get you a bigger and nicer room just say it-“ Clarissa asked while nervously watching me roam my eyes around. It’s just like the other classroom in the school, I bet even spacious and decent. Ten to fifteen students could fit. There’s also a nice glass table in front for me when teaching. Shelves full of books here and there. And guess what, a small bathroom. This looked like fixed for me. It needs no changes anymore.
“No, Dovey. Look this is perfect. It’s beautiful, not bad for a first timer like me. I’ll for sure enjoy teaching here.” Finally, she sighs in relief. She unclasped her hands that’s tightly holding each other fingers then walk towards me.
“Well then I’m glad you liked it. You see it’s already furnished and organized but feel free to decorate it on your own preferences. I could ask some staff to hand you things you need.” She’s really stressing about this whole thing. The typical Dovey. I put the quill that I picked up just a minute ago and held my hand out in front of her.
“Come here, Clarissa.”
She gently grab it and I pull her closer to me “Loosen up, princess. You’ve been worrying about everything all day. Just calm down and trust me to let you know if I need something.”
I press my thumb on the back of her hand, letting her know that everything is fine. I always do this to calm her down and it appears that it’s still effective, seeing her shoulders rest “Just like that.”
After that I just let her sit on one of the chair while I fix something in the room. I didn’t change much, I just added some decorations that’s about the subject I will be teaching. Like arrows on the ceiling and others.
“I’ve been meaning to ask you this..” I stop searching through the shelf of books as soon as I heard that. “What is it Dove?” She didn’t say anything for a moment, just looking at me while scratching the side of her neck “Um- I just remembered what Lesso said earlier… about Louis?”
My eyes grew wide “Oh no- You made it clear and I believe you but it’s not entirely about him. Lesso’s teasing earlier just made me wonder about something.” I know where this is going. I nodded while smiling.
“You’re wondering if I’m with anyone? Or something like that?” She confirmed it with a nod. I smirk even more. “Yeah, you’ve been away from us for enough time. I’m sure someone somehow caught your eyes.”
“A few yes of course. There’s a lot of pretty women in our place you know. Varieties of interesting people..” I began before continuing to scrolling through the bunch of books. I’m planning to read some before the school start.
“Talked with some back there, spend time with them but none really jump into another level. They’re all great don’t get me wrong, pretty and all but then I just don’t feel like committing at that time. I’m busy with all the work in the castle and I can’t see myself being with any of them.”
The thing about me is that I don’t like flings or a relationship that I know won’t last long. I will only date someone if I’m already sure to myself that I wanted to be with them for the rest of my life. As cheesy as it sounds like but I only date to marry. I may have liked some girls back then but they’re simply not the one I wanted, let alone love.
“What are you? 18?” She chuckled, a bit surprised by my answer.
“Not 18 but sure younger than you.” She just roll her eyes “But you’re not getting any younger, Lyanna. You can have anyone you want. Why not try?” That I will disagree with. If I can only have anyone I want, I’d be married long time ago “You’re talking like you, yourself isn’t still single. Find yourself a man or woman first before you scold me about it, will you? You’re funny.”
There’s no use of arguing with her, she won’t understand, she will never “I’m not looking for anyone. I can survive on my own, I need no prince saving me.” I hum, finally looking back at her “How about a princess?” She stop and think, “I don’t know, maybe.” It’s like she’s saying it to herself rather than to me.
“I don’t think so?”
“Do you want to have lunch with me?” She asked, clearly diverting the conversation “Sure.” I answered, not really thinking about the things I am yet to do. Well it’s Clarissa, not in a million years I would say no to her. “But just us? How about Lesso?” I asked wondering where in the heaven that woman is. She left Clarissa and I in the hall earlier after the breakfast, saying she have her own things to do. I just let her, recalling about our conversation last night.
That woman would rather drown herself with papers than spend her time with nonsense things. “I doubt Lesso would be wanting to eat with us again. She’s already pissed earlier.” I grab my satchel and throw it on my shoulder before looking at her “But if you want her then we can go to her school, ask her if she wants to have lunch with us?” She added then pinch my arm softly.
“No, it’s fine. She will not thank us for disturbing her anyway. I guess we just invite her tomorrow or next time?” She nodded in agreement. After that we start to head outside. Locking the classroom first before leaving.
“What do you think about a picnic?” Clarissa asked. I look outside and see that the weather is just right. Not too sunny nor clouded, just perfect, “That would be great, Dove.” Having said that, we asked the staffs to prepare us something to eat.
While waiting we just wait in the library, reading some books to past the time. I hope Lesso’s not overworking herself too much, she can be really harsh on herself sometimes.
The day continues just like that. We ate close to the lake, surrounded by field with different flowers and plants. The water is calm and warm, almost soothing. We eat and talk. Dovey never gets tired asking me about things, like how’s my mother, what did I really do in our kingdom or if I ever had any friends.
On the other hand, I just kept on answering her. I love how she talks with me like me being away for years never happened. She’s still the Dove I met when I was still innocent and immature. The Dovey who would go to my room and sleep beside me when it’s raining. The woman who taught me half of the things I know up to this day. Clarissa Dovey, the woman whom I love so dearly.
I wish I can make her feel just how much I miss her. Words nor hugs aren’t enough at all. I want to tell her what happened to me while being away from her and narrate how I will pray every night to finally get to see her in the morning like it’s just all a nightmare and I’ll wake up with her and Lesso jumping on my bed.
We never talk about Lesso the whole time though I would always worry every minute as possible If she has already eaten or still in her study room for who knows why. After we’re done eating Dovey excused herself because for some reason the headmaster needed her to do something.
She promise to come back quick and spend the rest of the day with me but I didn’t mind at all. I’d like to have a walk and explore the school alone. I entered almost every room and hall, they’re still the same as I left. Nothing special aside from the furniture and interiors that is much more modern now. I would see people every now and then. Either they will smile at me or completely ignore my presence. I want to talk with some and make friends but all the people here are like busy.
They’re all carrying a massive amounts of paper. I could already picture myself in their position on the next days and months. It’s an awful sight honestly.
