"You hate me?" ~ chris sturniolo

Chapter 20

*nicks pov*

Over the past few weeks life has been kind of hetic i mean the whole thing woth harper losing her memories and all has kind of threw me for a loop. I dont fully understand what happened between harper and her parents that night or why chris and harper are talking, mainly why chris is pushing her away. I know chris likes harper, he told me that time harper slammed the door in my room. I advised him to talk to harper about it but i guess chris does what chris wants to do.

But aside from all of that ive been feeling kind of weird lately. Usually when i hang out with my friends i feel energetic and alive but recently not so much. I want to show how much i care about them but my body wont let me. It feels like im under the water with all the pressure pushing down on me. I try to stay positive infront of my friends and i try not to zone out, but sometimes i cant help it.

One of my friends introduced me to their other friend which as you could have guessed was quite awkward, especially with how i am right now. But i got through it and found out a lot about him. He was cute and funny and i thought he would get along well with me and my brothers. But when i tried to introduce him to them chris had jess around and matt was too busy worrying about how harper was doing, texting her and calling her like she doesnt have a life of her own. I found out that this guy was friends with kai who worked with harper. And i decided to hang out with them and see how that group would turn out and surprisingly it was really fun. 

Enough of that, the other night jess had a sleepover in chriss room, which is disgusting that we even let her in. But anyway i needed to ask chris about ideas for the next youtube video so i decided to head up to his room. Once i got outside his door i heard shouting, more like high pitched squealing.

"Do you even care about me?" The high pitched sqeal yelled.

"Of course i do why would u think i dont?" Chris responded.

"Um maybe because you keep bringing up your stupid eye that hurts because of some bitch's brother that punched you" she yelled

"Dont call her that" he replied

"Did i hear that correctly? Youre defending her right now?" She was getting louder and louder.

"Im not defending her but just dont call her something shes not, okay?" Chris sounded scared.

"You little manwhore. I can't believe you would defend another woman when you have a perfectly good one right here"

"Dont call me that" chris seemed to be getting agitated.

"Is that all you can say tonight? Grow a pair of balls and tell harper you dont want to be friends anymore"

"I have" he sounded disappointed in himself

"Good. Now since you defended that bitch its time to get what you deserve"

All i could hear from outside of the door were the sounds of slaps and punches. I felt bad for chris and thought i shouldnt intervene now or i could make it worse in the long run.

After jess had left the next day, chris didnt leave his room for the whole day. When i tried to talk to him he pushed me away. I tried to tell matt about it but all he could talk and think about is the situation with harper, obsessive much. I needed to tell someone so i decided to try and tell harper but she was dealing with her own problems and then i thought about jay but he already doesnt like chris so i doubt he would have done anything.

So im stuck. With the biggest secret ever. A secret that is physically hurting my brother. My best friend. This adds the the pressure that already surrounds me making it harder to talk to people. My mind is always fogged with all the different situations that are happening around me.

Then i had the idea to bring it up to kai and the ofher guy named seb. But when i tried they dismissed me. Which seemed to be a pattern recently.

A/N
Okayss so this is a short chapter and im hoping it makes sense i havent proof read it or anything I've literally just wrote it so i hope you like it.