ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ ꜱᴛᴀʀ || Jakehoon

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 mentions of self harm ahead!

Jay's POV:

After the call I quickly put on my jacket and went to Sunghoon's home..I was really worried he'll hurt himself if I don't reach on time..He did this before..

*FLASHBACK*

AT SUNGHOON'S HOUSE:

day after the funeral:

Jay went to Sunghoon's home to take him to school with him since he knew staying at home will only hurt him..He went ahead slowly and cautiously since the family just lost a son and he didn't want to disturb them but he was worried about his cousin so he went there..

he came up and rang the bell..Sunghoon's father opened..
"Oh Jay-ah..come in.." he faintly smiled at the eighteen year old.
"I'll just take Sunghoon to school with me..I'm sorry for the disturbance.."

Jay said and walked to Sunghoon's room..the door was opened..
"Sunghoon-ah!  let's go to school.." 
He opened the door and Sunghoon wasn't in there..
he heard the shower running so he asumed Sunghoon's in there..

after 20 min: 

"Hey how long hoon? we are already late!" 

no answer..

"Park Sunghoon!"  

Jay's instinct told him something was definately wrong..he bangged the bathroom door but no answer..now he was certain that something was wrong..
"Uncle! come here quick!"
He shouts from halfway down the stairs and tells his uncle to rush with the bathroom keys..
They open the door..

"Sunghoon!!! no!" 
"call the ambulance!!"

Sunghoon cut his wrist and was half concious..the cut wasn't so deep so he was saved but If it was a bit late he could have died..

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Back to Jay's POV:

 I quickly ring the bell and Sunghoon's mom opens the door..
"hello aunt.."

she was still quite and just nodded at my greeting..not surprising tho..I quickly went upstairs to Sunghoon's room and saw him curled up on his bed..

"Sunghoon.." 
He sat up..and instantly ran to me and engulfed me in a hug and started crying..I patted his back and hummed close to his ears so he calms down..
after sometime when his sobs die down I make him sit on the bed..


"are you hearing voices again?" I asked calmly..
 He nodded..his lips still trembling making him unable to speak..
"I hope you understand it whatever happened was not your fault hoon.." 
"But..everyone says so."
"You know the truth..and we trust you hoon..I know you didn't do anything..don't blame yourself.."

I felt someone watching us..I turned back a little so as to not make it obvious and saw his mom standing near the door with tears in her eyes..but she wasn't coming in..
That's not my focus now..

"you didn't hurt yourself right?" 
"I almost did..I'm s-sorry.. "  He starts crying again..
"Hoon-ah..calm down..let's go to the counsellor again tomorrow ok?"
he nodded again and I let out a sigh or relief..

"shall we go to Heeseung hyung's house today? I spoke to him.." 
He nodded..

I looked back again and his mom already left..

after sometime we both headed to Heeseung hyung's house and decided to spend the night there..atleast someone will be around to look after him..He already had a high fever and crying didn't help..