ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ ꜱᴛᴀʀ || Jakehoon

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Sunghoon's POV:

I'm finally done with all classes..I'll be late if I don't leave now..can't destroy the only chance he gave me..God knows when he'll listen to me again if I let go of this..
I quickly bid Jay and Won a goodbye and left for the cafe..


I could see the bright lights in the city..just how good life would have been if that certain something was prevented..It suddenly striked me that Dad was gonna return tomorrow after two years..I need to give him an explaination too for how I didn't text or call him for the whole time..

I finally reached the cafe and looked around to find Jake..There he was at a corner window seat zoning out..I slowly walked up to him..I shouldn't be so nervous..

"Hey Jake.."

"You're here..c'mon tell me.."

"You won't order anything?"

"I did..for both of us..just go on and explain.."

"Ok..where do I start..well..uh.."

"Start with your Dad's marriage..don't ask me how I know.."

"Huh..Oh sure.."

Jake's POV:
He finally spoke after a minute of silence.

"My Dad married Hyeonwoo's mom..a court marriage..they didn't want so much attention so they decided on that..I actually had no idea it was his mom..I only knew on His birthday when I saw him with his mom..I accepted things fast since Dad was so happy and Mom too..I never really saw a problem with their relation..I thought since it was all new for Hyeonwoo it's difficult for him to accept and that he'll eventually accept things but I was wrong..He..he never accepted anything really..just kept pretending in front of them and later he would tell me how much he wanted them to separate..He even threate-...uh...he even told me to keep it a secret from the others..He eventually started acting cold towards me..and.."

"And?"

"And lied to you..about him liking you.."

I gasped at the sudden statement..lying about liking me?

"W-what do you mean by that?"

"Please just try to hear me out Jake..the letters that you recieved every once in a while..weren't sent by him.." 

"No ..he said he sent them..why are you lying Sunghoon? you were here to explain the accident..why are you lying like this!?"

"I'm not lying Jake..He never sent them..he lied to you..the letters were actually sent-"

"Enough..I think that much is okay for now..I don't wanna hear any more.."

"wait Jake-"

"I said enough!"

I said and just went out of there..I stood a moment in fresh air near the bridge as I processed what he said..my head was swirling around now..Hyeonwoo didn't sent the letters? He was pretending? Am I supposed to believe this? or am I not? is it even the truth? did my feelings get played?
who am I suppose to believe? This is harder than I thought..if Sunghoon is lying then what really happened? and if he's telling the truth then I've made a huge mistake..but what the hell is the truth? 

I was just about to leave when I heard a low voice behind me..

"I see I made you uncomfortable in there..sorry.."
"Who sent the letters?"  I was too impatient to have a patient conversation now..
"well.."

"Do you even know?"
"I do Jake I really do..It was-"
"I don't want to listen lies Sunghoon.."

"what? but Jake-"
"How am I supposed to believe you?"
"The first letter was written on a yellow coloured paper with black ink and their was a little puppy sticker inside...it was handmade right?"

"Yeah..but you all saw that already.."
"Well.."
He took out a little plastic purse with a ton of stickers like that..puppys,deers,penguins,and even a pig? 

"You..you were really.."
"I know it's a lot to take in Jake..but please trust me.."

"why did you keep quite back then if it was you who sent them? why are you just telling me now!?"

"I was scared.."
"Why?"

His face went Pale..

"He..he said he will do everything in his power to ruin Dad and his mom's relationship..and I knew he could..so I kept shut.."

"I don't know what to say..I am really confused.."
"I just wanted to tell you the truth..and about his death.."

 I looked at him..face out of colour, he looked so tired..what was he upto all this time? 

"Did you push him on purpose?" I couldn't help but ask..I wanted to know everything now..
He looked down and I had to listen carefully to hear what he was telling..

"He slipped..really..I s-swear I didn't push him..I'm sorry.." he said in a really low voice.

The police said he slipped too..I looked at him again..face still down but I could see tears..

"Is it really the truth?"

he looked like he'll break any second now..he looked weak..I never saw him like this..never..not even when his mom died was he like this..he was sad and cried but this just looked different..

He couldn't say anything and just nodded to my question..

"I don't know Sunghoon..I don't know what to believe..I really don't.." 

"Jake..I'm telling the truth..really..I know it's hard for you to believe me..but really..I didn't push him..I wouldn't..I just wanted to confront him and urge him to tell the truth..I never imagined something like that would happen.."

"Was confronting him necessary?" If he didn't call him out nothing would have happened..

"huh..?but he was lying..he was lying to you-"

"But I was happy Sunghoon! I was happy even if it was a lie..I would have been hurt later but this could have been prevented!"

"I wouldn't want you hurt Jake!"

"But you hurt me the most Sunghoon!! even if Hyeonwoo lied,even if he was using me..his death is something that hurt me the most! You could have told me that you sent the letters..but no, you were a coward..you should have told me the truth! Not urged him to do so!"

Sunghoon's POV:

I couldn't believe this is what Jake thought..why didn't I think of it? It would have prevented the accident..I should have told Jake back then..Hyeonwoo was right afterall..I indeed am a coward..I wanted to save everyone..but ended up hurting everyone instead..

"You are right..I'm sorry.."

"That word means nothing coming from you now..will a sorry fix things? will it bring Hyeonwoo back? You are smart Sunghoon..you could have thought of the consequences! what did you want to prove exactly? I understand he was wrong..but were you any different?"

"I just wanted to make everything right.."

was this conversation meant to be like this? I thought it'll be fine..I thought he'll forgive me..

"Do you even know what you've done? you know what that little confrontation of yours lead to right?"

"Jake..please..just forgive me please..I didn't want that to happen.." 

"I don't know Sunghoon! I don't know..I want to forgive you but at the same time I don't!"

I can't blame Jake..He was the one who was unaware of everything..He suffered without knowing the truth..it's not easy for him to trust me..

"I understand Jake..I'll just tell you this now..since I don't know if I'll get a chance again..I like you Jake..I always did..I was gonna ask you out on your birthday..but things didn't turn out that way..I thought of telling you back then..but you would always hangout with Hyeonwoo and would ignore me.."

"You like me? good one hoon..now you wanna play the victim when you were the one who hurt him?"

I hurt him? what is he talking about?


"Hyeonwoo said me how you hit him when we went out on dates..now to play the victim you replaced yourself in the story right! You said Ni-ki to tell me that you were the one that was abused.."

"Jake..no this isn't the truth..I never-"

"was he lying then Sunghoon! I don't think so..I think I've listened to what you had to say..let's just live our own lives now..don't come to me again..Let me live in peace.."

No one's POV:

And with that Jake left..who could blame him? he suffered on which side to take for so long..after two years he was suddenly said that everything he believed till now was not true..Trusting Sunghoon was certainly not easy for him..


and Sunghoon?
he just stood there with tormented eyes shivering under the wind and occupied by heavy emptiness again..

Did he complicate things even more?