Snapped || Sanegiyuu Fanfic

Chapter 32: Maybe forever was a word meant for memories

!!! This chapter might be rushed and maybe a bit short !!!

| Contains mentions of attempted suicide |

The two continued their life in peace, they were happy to say the least. And Gichii couldn't have been happier with Sane, he loved and adored him more than his heart could bear. He loved the way Sane holds him in such a warm embrace, he loves when Sane places the most gentle kisses on his lips. When they hold hands and walk around the city together. When they sit outside under the street light talking quietly as the silent road filled with a rainy ambiance. And Sane couldn't agree more. He enjoyed their time together, he loved when Gichii would play with his hair, when Gichii would trace his fingers along his scars. Sane loved everything about him. To his soothing voice—his deep blue eyes.

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Even if there was few rough patches, they would always end in a long talk and forgiveness . There wasn't one day where they got bored of each other. Blinded by love and sweetness.

Years went by and they were in their rough 30's now, Gichiis music had begun to get popular, and Sane's job has given him the raise he needs, after all, he's been putting in his best work he can give. And that company had sky-rocketed because of it.

After a while, Sane had taken notice of Gichiis health, he was a bit more distant, like when they had first met, he remembers that day like it was on a constant loop. He smiled at the memory, he watched as Gichii rejected food, "I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me." Gichii would say, his voice still soft towards him. But, Sane knew all too well that he wasn't. But, he couldn't figure it out. was it something he did? Sane bit at his nails as he thought for a while. He knew that if his dad was bothering him then Gichii would've told him in a heartbeat.

But nothing, no matter how much Sane tried to speak to him about it, Gichii would always shrug it off, saying what he always would say. And so, when Gichii had came home a few days later, Sane stopped him from going to their room. He grabbed his arm and asked him to sit down. Without any complaints Gichii sat across the living room from Sane.

"Gichii." Sane started getting a soft hum from the other. "I know you're lying to me when you say you're fine. You did this in high school when you weren't okay. So please, tell me what's going on. Is something bothering you? Did I do something to upset you? It's been a month. Please, talk to me. Don't shut down your emotions again, we worked so hard to get you back up on your feet. I don't want to lose who you are." Sane said, his voice kept at a gentle tone, though worry surged through his veins as he thought of the possibilities is he didn't talk to him.

Gichiis eyes batted at the latter, "Sane—I didn't mean to worry you..It's just my producer has been pressuring me more and he's barely letting me have breaks and—" Gichii explained quickly, his hands quick to raise in front of him, almost in a reassuring way. Sane placed a firm hand in front of him, like he was telling Gichii to calm down. "I understand. But you need to stop letting people push you over the edge. Remember when you stood up to your father? You need to do that again, more often. If you keep allowing people to do so, they're going to tire you out." Sane said, keeping his tone the same. Gichii only nodded, his head lowering, he felt guilty, "I'm sorry." He repeated as a silence filled the room.

Gichii then felt warm arms wrap around him, tears filled in Gichiis eyes, he felt bad for making Sane worry, he didn't mean for it to happen. He just thought that is he kept how he was doing to himself then it wouldn't have any consequences to Sane. He swallowed the burning in his throat as he let a few tears fall from his eyes. "I'm sorry.." He said once more, his voice wobbly as he tried to stop himself from crying any more. A small chuckle was heard from Sane before a sweet kiss was placed on his cheek "It's alright, you don't have to feel this bad about it." Sane said as he wiped Gichiis tears with his thumbs.

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A few years had gone by, and Gichii found himself in the bathroom, he sat on the floor as his eyes felt heavy, he brought his knees to his chest, taking deep breaths as his mind slowly began to fill with thoughts he wished he could've forgotten.
But no matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't. He looked over to the cabinet, his mind blanking and before he knew it, handfuls of medicines went to his mouth, he sobbed as he tried to stop himself, he tried and tried but his body wouldn't reject them. Few by few, his body took the pills. And a thud eventually echoed through the house. Gichii lay on the bathroom floor, his eyes heavy as he struggled to keep his eyes open.

Sane was quick to get up, looking through the house when he realized Gichii wasn't laying next to him. He searched before he reached the bathroom, his eyes widened seeing Gichii laying there, still, his dark hair splayed below him as sweat dripped down the side of Gichiis temples. Sane quickly ran to his phone, dialing the police, when they picked up—he requested an ambulance. And after a bit of discussion, they had directed him on what to do, he hoisted Gichii on his side, not wanting him to choke on anything.

And after a few minutes, the ambulance arrived, Sane opened the door for them, rushing them to the bathroom as he tried his best to not cry, he didn't know what to do, his hands shook as he watched them try to help there, but to no avail. He didn't want to lose him. Not like this, he couldn't let Gichii slip away from his grasp, not after what they've been through. What they've talked about. He thought he put all those thoughts aside.

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At the hospital, Sane refused to leave Gichiis side unless he had to go home. Sane informed his boss of the situation and he was able to go on an Emergency Leave. Day after day, Sane waited for Gichii to wake up.

And after a few months, his eyes slowly fluttered open, Gichii adjusted to the light, groaning lightly as his eyes squeezed shut again. He tried to speak only for his voice to give out on him. "Sa.." He said, trying to call out for Sane. "Sane.." He said, yet he was met with silence, his lips quivered as he began to cry, "Sane..!" He said, tears rolling down bud face, he didn't like it there, he wanted to go home, he wanted to go home and apologize to Sane for all the wrong things he's done.

When it clicked in Gichiis mind, he was quick to hit the emergency button, with all his strength, he lifted his arm and wiped away his tears "I'm such a baby.." He said, laughing a bit at his hoarse voice. And just then, a doctor had rushed in, seeing Gichii awake, she was quick to tend to him, doing some check-ups, she made sure everything was fine before calling Sane, "He's up." She said, Sane was quick to hang up, rushing over to the hospital.

He ran inside, ignoring the receptionist as they tried to get him to book in. He went straight to Gichiis room, opening the door, his face full of hope and happiness as he quickly went to Gichiis side once more. Tears were quick to fill their eyes as they smiled at one another. "I'm so sorry.." Gichii was quick to say, but Sane sighed in relief, before replying "Don't be..we should've taken different routes on things. I'm glad you're awake." Sane said, a bright yet soft smile spread on his face. "I shouldn't have done what I did.." Gichii replied his eyes letting tears fall down again.

"You scared me. I thought you weren't ever going to wake up." Sane only said, the two smiled once more and Sane placed his hand on top of Gichiis. Happy tears flowing down Sane's cheeks.

W/C: 1443

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