Bonkai

Chapter 26 - kai

I think we are going to get Jessica back. Bonnie's been texting me and we are going to meet up tomorrow to get her back. I don't know why she's taking me with her but I'm sure as hell not going to argue. Today I have decided I'm going to surprise her. I hope she is at the Salvatore's.
Chap. Chap. Chap. I knocked on the door. Stefan answered. 'Stefan!' I said in a fake happy voice. 'Haven't seen you in a while, is Bonnie here?' I laughed nervously. 'What's it to you?' He said with no emotion to his voice and stepped out closer to me in attempt to intimidate me. 'Hey Stefan who's at the door?' I heard Damon say as he walked towards the door. He saw me before saying 'I thought you weren't meeting Bonnie til tomorrow?' I replied nervously with 'I'm not, I just wanted to talk to her.' 'I don't think so.' Stefan said as he crossed his arms over his chest. 'I can take care of myself' a higher pitched voice called from behind Damon. She walked around Stefan who held his stance and said 'what's up Kai?'
'Well I just wanted to talk to you... Hey maybe we could go somewhere else?' I coughed nervously hoping she would agree to this outrageous offer. She reached behind Stefan to grab her coat. The Salvatore's had not moved and watched as me and Bonnie walked away.

'Where do you want to go?' I asked her after 5 minutes of awkward silence. 'How about we just take a walk?' She suggested. 'Sounds good' I said in agreement. I should probably start talking to her soon. I didn't know how to start. 'I've made my feelings clear for you and I guess I want to know where you stand.' I had to put my point across. This is what I needed to talk about. It was her turn to do the talking. 'Kai.' She looked at me with those pleading, beautiful eyes. 'I can't.'
I listened intently hoping she would carry on which she did. 'I forgave you and now I don't know what's next'
She seemed to not know what to say so I prompted her 'maybe you can talk about why you kissed me.'
'Because...' She started pretending she had an explanation already. 'I don't know.' She said defeated. 'Maybe I feel something for you, or maybe I was just caught in the moment.' It was I who had the pleading eyes now. We stopped walking at the edge of a road. We just stood there as she spoke. 'Kai I can't feel that way about you, I might have forgave you but I told you I wouldn't forget, what you did hurt me, and I know you're not the same anymore, but I don't think I could feel anything for you now, I'm sorry.'
'You have nothing to be sorry for, it's okay.' I said. We started walking again. I didn't believe she didn't feel anything for me. When we kissed, I knew what she wanted. Our souls connected and we could just tell. Everything was going to be okay. She has to love me back. You can't love someone so much and have them not love you back. It's impossible. I decided I should say something 'you'll see me differently one day'
'Oh is that right?' She said as if I was being arrogant.
'I know all the things I've done in the past were unforgivable but I still think there is hope for us.'
'Kai.' She breathed. 'I just told you-' I cut her off. It was time to be truthful. 'I can't love someone so much and have them not love me back, it can't be possible, you will love me one day, you have to, maybe not today or even in 10 years time but one day you will fall for me... And I wished I deserved to be there to catch you. But after this no doubt Damon or Alaric will get the satisfaction of killing me. I won't be able watch you fall In love with me'
'Kai stop.' She begged. She wouldn't look me in the eye. 'I won't get to watch you feel the same way I feel about you, I won't get to kiss you once more, I won't get to admire your beauty and every inch of you, I won't get to see that sparkle in your eye the day you realise you love me, I won't get to feel the relief of knowing I was given a second chance by the only person that matters.' She hadn't looked at me the whole way through my little speech. She looked at the ground with her arms folded. 'At least tell me one thing, did you see it?'
'See what?' She questioned.
'The look in my eyes when I fell in love with you.'
'You're so cheesy.' She joked trying to change the subject.
'Did you?' I pushed her to answer.
'I wasn't looking for it but I saw it.' She said simply.
'And now you won't even look at me? In case you see it again?'
'No Kai, I'm just going to start walking back to Damon's place.'
'Bonnie please, look at me.' She was walking away from me quickly. Head bowed to the ground and hands in pockets. I was tempted to run after her. Hell I was going to. 'Bonnie, I'm not giving up on you, if I'm only here for a short time, even if you're only using me, I'm not going to give up.'
She finally looked at me. I smiled. 'Kai please.' She said. 'I don't know what you want me to say Bonnie.' I had to say. What was she expecting. Wait a second. Her eyes were so beautiful. They managed to sparkle in the dim lit sky. She was in love with me. She wouldn't admit it so I would have to say it for the both of us. She loved me. Maybe not to the same extent but definitely loved me. I wasn't giving up. We looked at each other in silence. Her lips were parted whilst she breathed in the cold air. She was shaking ever so slightly. I was careful with every move I made up until now. I always wanted to make sure she was comfortable. But love shouldn't be comfortable. It should be passionate, adventurous and scary. I knew she loved me. So I kissed her. Just a small peck at first as a way of asking permission. The way she hesitated to pull away was my confirmation 'Kai' she whispered so innocently. She was so fragile. She wanted to say something, perhaps ask me for a reason for her not to fall in love with me. And I could think of many. But she was falling for me. 'Shhh' I whispered comfortingly. 'I love you.' I kissed her forehead softly. I wanted to kiss her and heck I would but right now it's not what she needed. 'Let me walk you home.' I offered and held out my hand as an invitation. She held it and we strolled back to the Salvatore's. I love her. An emotion I've only ever once felt before and it destroyed me. But this love was worth the destruction.

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Might stop writing this I don't know, I feel like it's getting a bit boring or predictable but I just wanted to see Bonnie and Kai together x comment?