I wish I could forget you - Bangchan

- Part 5 -

 - Present time - 

If you had told me sooner maybe it wouldn't have hurt so badly. 

But you didn't. And that really hurt. 

I get it in a way, but it still hurts.

- Flashback to early summer -

Chan had called me earlier that day, saying that he wanted to see me. It had been a couple weeks since we last met, and I had a feeling he had been putting it off. That kiss seemed to make him more awkward than usual. It hurt me in a sense, but I understood.

He told me to meet him at the beach at our usual spot in ten minutes. I slipped on my converse and padded out the house, being careful not to wake my mom. 

I saw him sat on the sand, looking at the ocean. In that moment I almost just wanted to take a picture of him, he looked so ethereal. Maybe I was just over exaggerating, but I simply thought he looked perfect.

Approaching him, I sat beside him. 

"Hey Libby, I've been thinking about you a lot recently." he says, a soft smile on those lips of his. 

"You've contacted me twice in the past two weeks Chan." i said, not looking at him.

"Hey Libby look at me." he says as he takes my chin in his hand and turns my head to look at him. I almost had the guts to kiss him again in that moment, but I didn't want to ruin things. "I know it was bad of me, and I'm sorry. But I just deeply don't want to hurt you." he adds.

"Why do you keep bringing up this thing about hurting me? I feel like you're the most unlikely person to hurt me in any way." i say, feeling slightly confused. 

" I know it's just.. please understand that sometimes things happen for a reason yeah? Look, love is like a puzzle okay, when you're in love, all the pieces fit. But when your heart gets broken, it takes a while for everything to get put back together. I may be moving too fast with all the love stuff, but understand that I don't want for you to feel that way, for your heart to be broken." he says as he tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"I understand what you mean... partially. But i'm trusting you chan, with my heart. I don't fully get this but I know how I feel towards you." I say as i look at him. For some reason a tear falls from my eye, staining my cheek. I hurriedly go to wipe it.

"hey don't cry, I'm here. and I'm not going anywhere, got it?" he says softly.

"got it." i say as he takes my hands. we sit like that for a while. i don't exactly remember how long, but time moved so quickly.

"I wanna give you one more thing." he says as he looks at me.

"One more thing, okay?" I say to him.

"sure sure" he says quickly. I knew he was lying and there would be more, but I just decided to accept it. That was the thing about Chan, he would always surprise me with little gifts.

He handed me a small parcel, wrapped in a dusty rose colored tissue. 

I took it from him and slowly opened it. Inside was a little jewelry box. My eyes widened as I looked from the box to his face.

"Go on, open it." he says, eager to see my reaction to whatever was inside.

I lifted the lid from the box and inside was a bracelet with a variety of charms on it. I looked at each charm in turn. There was a small red guitar, a crescent moon, a music note, a brightly colored star. 

"Each charm means something special Libby. I chose the red guitar because it looked similar to the one you own. A moon because we always end up meeting underneath it, a music note for mine and yours love for music. And a star, because your eyes always shine like you have a whole galaxy in them." he explains.

"I want to say thank you, but I feel like it isn't enough.." i say as I look at him deeply.

"Hmmm how about a kiss then?" he says cheekily.

I lean forward and place a timid kiss on his lips, my heart feeling as though it was going to fall out my chest.

"You give me those kind of feelings that people write novels about." I say as I pull back, rocking on the heels of my shoes.

"That was kinda the aim." he says with a grin.