I wish I could forget you - Bangchan

- Part 7 -

- End of Last Summer - 

Those were the most magical few months of my life. I treasured them deeply, and I loved you with my whole heart.

Chan said he needed to tell me something important, and for some reason my heart dropped at that message, I had a feeling that something was wrong. I went to our usual spot and saw him. He wasn't sat down though, he was stood, leaning back against the wall. I couldn't fully tell, but it looked as though he had been crying. His eyes were red and puffy.

"Chan what's going on?" i say, trying to keep myself together.

"I think i made a bad choice, but I also think it's good in a way? I'm not sure.." he says, stuttering a little.

"can you please just tell me what's going on?" i ask him as i cross my arms, trying to compose myself.

"Im moving away from Cali." he says, a serious look on his face.

In that moment I felt as though the whole world stopped for a second. My head spun and I felt dizzy.

"what do you mean your'e moving away? your'e joking right now, right?" i ask him frantically.

"I.. you know when we first met, you told me how you wanted to leave Cali and I agreed with you and said I also wanted to leave? I have wanted to leave for a while. Not because of you, but because of all the memories I have attatched to this place. There's a career i wanna persue and an opportunity came up. It was perfect for me. The bad part is.. leaving you. Which i don't want with my whole heart." his voice begins to break and I can't bare to look at him any longer. A lump forms in my throat and i have to swallow hard to stop myself from crying.

"So why are you doing this if you don't want to leave me so badly? you clearly couldn't care less." I say as I raise my voice a little at the end, strangled sobs leaving my throat.

"Libby.. listen to me. I'll come back and visit you every opportunity I get, okay? it'll be long distance but we can make this work. I know we can. I love you too much for me to just give up on you like that." he says desperately.

"how long have you known that you were leaving?" I say in a quieter voice now.

"a little while, I hinted at it a bit before but I couldn't bring myself to ruin it... the happiness that we had in those moments together." he says as he looks down at the ground.

"you have to promise me to call me and text me and visit me every chance you get, okay?" I say sincerely as I move his head to look at his eyes. Those eyes that I would miss so deeply.

"You know I will" he says as he kisses me.

He kisses me for the last time, but I did not know it would be the last in that moment.

"Where are you even going to?" i ask him. he seems a little hesitant to answer at first.

"I'm going to New York, I'm finally gonna start producing my music big time. I've wanted this for a while." he says as he strokes my hair.

"Well..I'm happy for you.. just please don't forget me. okay?" I say anxiously.

"I won't." he says.