The shortest and longest entries Nene keeps in the notebook given to her by Haruo:
"I can't tell if I'm getting weaker or stronger now."
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"Dear Diary,
Today Teru-san, Kou-kun, and Tiara-chan all came to visit. The three of them talked with me, ate with me (although I barely did), and Tiara-chan made a drawing for me while she was here. I taped it to the wall across my bed to look at it because it makes me happy; it shows Tiara-chan and me watching the New Year's fireworks, which we did this past New Year's. I remember she was getting sleepy as we were watching. We lit sparklers together and stayed up to see the first sunrise of the year.
My chest had been hurting a little but I still had tons of fun. I will keep that memory safe since I've been forgetting a lot more. I was told it was because of the chemo round (due to it being my first one) but maybe I am simply letting these good memories go and being taken over by the worse ones? I don't know.
Nurse Hiromi asked me about school again. She said, "Do you like school, then, Yashiro-san?" and I said yes. She told me to think of something here that reminded me of school and I did not tell her this but I chose her.
The way Nurse Hiromi acts and looks and talks, she reminds me of memories themselves and specifically ones with my friends. Only the Minamotos have visited me since that first day. I tried to call Aoi-chan and she did not respond (I hope she was only busy), and I have not tried Akane-kun. I wonder if I should.
My parents called four times, and I only talked to them briefly twice. The other times I was sleeping or trying to go for a walk, assisted by Nurse Hiromi. I've realized she helps me a lot and when I am done here I would like to do something to thank her.
Slowly, but surely, I have started eating again. Very little I can manage, but it's progress. Truthfully, eating makes me feel ill, but the doctors said I have to endure it if I want to see progress as soon as possible. I refused dinner yesterday but I think that is probably the only meal I have skipped in a few days, which is good.
Haruo-kun is writing this for me, in fact, because sometimes it is hard just to hold a pen . He's a good friend.
(This is Haruo. Thanks, Yashiro-san, I appreciate it ^ - ^)
His name, written, means 'warm sunlight' which I find pleasant and it fits his personality.
These next four days will be my last doses of chemo for this first round. I cannot say I have gotten used to the effects but I am trying to work through it by hanging out with Haruo-kun when I can, talking with Kou-kun, drawing, writing, and whatever else I have the strength to do.
There are some things I would like to say about the boy I keep dreaming about but I'm afraid I'm too embarrassed to say any of it in front of someone else. Sorry, Haruo-kun.
Love, Nene
(2/25)"
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