Be Better, Or stay Bitter. Self Love Journey.

The Betrayal

Me and Christopher had been together for a while now and he started saying negative things about Angel. He said stuff like she was a lesbian and that she was in love with me. I believed him, and it really made me feel uncomfortable, so I started distancing Angel. We were still friends of course, but I started hanging more out with Christopher. And now that he had gaslighted me into thinking Angel was a lesbian, only made me hang out with him more.

The longer we were together, the more uncomfortable things got. He started becoming more touchy towards me and I told him I didn't like it. Even after telling him that I felt uncomfortable, he didn't stop. He would put his leg on top of my leg under the lunch table at school. He would also start kissing places like my neck and my hand. It didn't stop there, he also started touching me more inappropriately than before. 

But even after all that, I somehow still slowly fell for this disgusting guy. After I slowly started crushing on him, he broke up with me in front of the whole school saying that I was annoying and clingy. After he said all that, one of the guys from my class named Jasper, showed me a video of him having his arms around Emma while going somwhere. It all made sense now. One time ,she wore his hoodie while we were still dating, but I didn't say much about it. And now the video? He had been cheating on me. Later on, it was revealed that he was only with me because him and Henry had made a bet. The bet was to get the most "hard to get girl" in class, and if Christopher was able to do that, he would get money from Henry. Not only that, he dated Emma right after breaking up with me. And boy were they horrible towards me. Christopher's sister, Grace, had also started being mean to me. She started throwing my clothes in the trash that was in my locker. Our lockers didn't have locks. What a bummer.

I acted as if I didn't care, but deep inside of me, I was broken. After all I did for him, how could he do this to me? After he broke up with me, he, Emma, Henry and the rest of the class had a party at his house,  celebrating that he finally got rid of me.

The rest of the school year, him and Emma would bully me. They would throw sand on me and physically hurt me. Not only that, they also became criminals. They got a terrible reputation after they had been stealing stuff from the store. And Henry? He started throwing stuff at me. One  time, I was going to a birthday party right after school and I had changed my clothes into a beautiful dress after the last period. Henry then came to me with an anti-bacterial bottle and threw it all over my dress. I went to the bathroom crying while calling my mum. But that's not the worst part, Angel started hating me. Christopher had been telling her things that were absolutely not true. He told her stuff that I apparently had said about her, and it broke her.

Not only did I get more bullied, but I had also lost my best friend.