Be Better, Or stay Bitter. Self Love Journey.

First Love, Travis Gray

I had met another guy at Burger King about the same age as me. I was ordering a drink for myself, and then I saw two guy friends  having fun and goofed around. One of the friends pushed the other friend in a friendly way, and he had bumped into me which made me spill my drink.

He turned around and saw the mess all over me and the floor. He felt bad and insisted into buying me a new drink. When I saw him, I had a feeling that I had never felt before. I didn't know what kind of feeling it was, but I liked it. And that feeling had forced me to ask for his snap before he left. He gave me his snap and introduced himself as Travis, Travis Gray.

After I got his snap, we started chatting and calling each other a lot. We even started seeing each other more. And our friendly feelings, had decided to transform itself into love. We fell in love with each other and started dating.

Everything went well. We were spending lots of time with each other and we were really loving to each other. He started complimenting me a lot, especially my eyes. He would always mention how beautiful they were and how different they were from others eyes. His compliments made me feel warm. And I would always be there for him. Whenever he was sad or depressed, I would always call him no matter what. Even if it was 4 am, I would still talk to him for hours. However, after some time, he started showing his true colours. He was really manipulative, he was really controlling, he was an alcoholic and he was filled with jealousy.

I don't know why or what, but something inside of me told me to do a loyalty test on him. So I asked my friend, Alana, to do a loyalty test on him.

She added him on snap and started flirting with him. I was confident that this was going to go well, but he surprisingly went with the flow. He texted her using "xxx" and he sent her a shirtless pic. He even said the same things to her like he said to me. "You have beautiful eyes, there's something different about them compared others." I was so shocked and crushed. Alana told me to make a group chat of us three and expose him there.

At first, he was taking things easily and said stuff like "it was only a one time thing" or "I was just being nice" or "I was going to block her afterwards". But after he saw how hurt I really got, he started seeking for forgiveness. He started manipulating me and he started guilt tripping me into saying things like "now I know why no one likes me, I'm a pig, I'm a disappointment. Please just leave me." And I fell for his manipulative traps, I gave him a second chance. He swore on Gods name to block girls from his snap and to be loyal to me. Me and Alana believed him because he had blocked her after his promise.