When we arrived to our new home, I started tearing up. It was beautiful, and our new life was also going to become beautiful.
I'm not going to go deep into details, but when we had recently moved to the new city, I started dating a guy named Derek. All you need to know about Derek, is that he was an 18 year old boy whom had a heart bigger than the ocean. We wouldn't tell many people about our relationship since he was 18 and I was 14 back then. He was a true angel. However, I had treated him very poorly.
He would always write me love paragraphs, he would always be there for me, and he would spoil me even though he was broke. Despite all his goodness, all I could see, was all his negative sides. Which were: 1, he lived with his grandma ever since his mother passed away due to overdose of drugs and he didn't bother to get a job and get his own place. 2, he was overweight and only played on his video games 24/7. 3, he didn't even go to college because he hated school. Short said, he didn't have a life. These things were really burning me.
Oh but boy was he amazing. He bought me a really expensive ring that was completely out of his budget. I still don't have an answer to where he got all that money from. He would always save up his pocket money so that he could buy me everything I desired. He wanted to treat me like a queen and spoil me with money and love. But I would always show him attitude. I would be jealous and angry whenever he would mention or talk to another girl, and I would never see my mistakes. I would only see his mistakes.
There was more goodness in this person than mistakes. I left him in a brutal way by pointing out all of his mistakes and then saying I don't want to be his partner anymore because of his failure in life. He was crying and begging me to forgive him and to not leave him. However, I let his tears run down and blocked him out of my life forever.
I regret every single bit of it till this day. I pray each and every day for him to have a great life, and for him to forgive me.
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