Be Better, Or stay Bitter. Self Love Journey.

The Breakup

9th of August, was the date A.J and Travis story was officially done. After our brutal break up, I got so depressed that I wouldn't eat anything for the whole day, I would also start breaking down very often. Time went by, but I still wasn't healed. It was then I realized, I really loved this guy. Travis Gray, was my first love.

There's one thing I haven't mentioned tho. I met another guy in my new city before I met Travis. His name was Mason. We became really good friends. And whenever me and Travis would have a fight, I would always call and vent on Mason. He would always be available for me. He would always warn me about Travis and said things like "leave Travis and come to me instead, I'll treat you like a queen". I didn't do that because I didn't love Mason. However, after me and Travis broke up, I asked Mason if he still wanted to date me. I did this because I wanted to forget Travis.  He laughed at my face and said "no I don't want to date you anymore".

I felt betrayed. I stared becoming mad.  I would go into the woods and cry my lungs out while punching trees until my hands started to bleed. I just had enough of everything.

However, 13th of September, I had gotten a dm on my instagram, it was from Travis. He had asked me how things were going, and that he came back because he cares about me. We had a normal conversation, and then I gave him a chance to admit that he cheated on me with Marie. It was obvious that he did cheat, but I wanted him to be honest with me and himself. He denied it by saying that they were just friends and that she did catch feelings for him and she would flirt with him, but he would tell her to stop. He said that she grew too attached to him. He also said that before dating me, they would flirt and that he stopped doing that when he started dating me.

This guy just exposed himself. If Marie was so serious about him, why would he start flirting with me if he started flirting with her before me? This guy was a player. 3 days after he gave me a dm, he then texted me again and said "I am together with Marie and she's much better than you. She writes me love paragraphs more than you and blah blah blah". I was too annoyed to reply him. So after I left him on "seen", he unfriended me. I told my friends about all this and they got pissed. They got so pissed that they searched for his socials and texted him saying things like "why did you do that A.J you should be ashamed of yourself" blah blah blah. He even then, would  try to be the victim and blamed things on me.