How much shit can a person go through before they're truly dead on the inside?"
Life is a challenging journey. It can be even more difficult when three girls find out that they possess extraordinary powers. One would assume that their abilities woul...
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"Oh my god." I whisper under my breath in disbelief as I pace back and forth trying to wrap my mind around what I just did. If I thought I was in some deep shit a few days ago, I don't even want to know how deep I'm in now.
"Why did I just do that?" I say in a hushed voice, still pacing, my arms folded across my chest as I dig my nails into my skin.
The one thing I've found out in my seventeen years of life is that the bad side to love is that you can't choose who you fall in love with. I guess my first love is one of the bad ones, the ones that were always destined to hurt you, to break your heart.
Why am I so stupid? I kick her out one day but I pull her back the next. Maybe dying is messing with my mind.
I bite my lip nervously, digging my nails deeper into my skin, leaving little crescent moon marks from the shape of my nails.
"I need a distraction." I whisper to myself as I sit on my bed. I grab my phone, looking to see what time it is. 3:45 am. A heavy sigh leaves my lips as I stand back up and walk into my bathroom, getting into the shower.
I'm an idiot, why would I fuck her? Why would I be so fucking stupid?
Because you're still in love with her and it's kind of obvious she cares for you as well.
I'm not going to get back with her, I can't, I can't put my heart back out on the line for her. She just assumed I was cheating and ran. She broke my heart, I fucking killed myself! Why would I do that to myself again? I would be even more of an idiot if I did that again.
But we love each other.
She can't even say she loves me.
I feel tears trickling down my face, as I sink to the floor. All I can do is sit under the scalding hot water, crying, overthinking, wanting to feel something other than complete and utter heartbreak.
I need a better distraction. Something to get my mind off the ache in my heart.
I take a deep breath as I turn the water off, sitting there as the cold air hits my naked body.
I could go to the vampires instead of going to school so I don't have to face Aelin or Ashley. That sounds like the best idea I've had in a while. Even though I've already missed so much school. It's fine though.
I bite my lower lip nervously as I finally stand up, leaving the shower. Wrapping a white fluffy towel around my body, I grab my phone to see what time it is. 4:50
