Oblivion (Harry Styles)

Chapter 26

Harry's POV

"Julia Marie Styles was a strong, young woman, who put others before herself. She didn't know she would have to give up her life, when she was driving to the hospital that day. Yet, I believe we all know that Julia would've done it all over again, if it meant her son would have an opportunity to experience this wonderful world. Let's bow our heads in silence, as we remember Julia."

I bowed my head, the lump in my throat holding an everlasting home there. My son, Jake, slept soundly in his carrier.

To say taking care of him on my own was hard, was an understatement.

I still cried every night, when I looked over at the empty side of the bed. I cried every morning, when I wasn't freezing, because she had taken all the covers. I cried every time I looked at my son, because I saw her in his eyes.

None of that stopped me from loving him with all my heart. No class or book could prepare me for this.

I was brought out of my thoughts, when I heard, "and now a few words, from Julia's husband."

I looked over to make sure someone was watching Jake, before getting up. I ran my hand down my suit, then walked to the front.

"I'm not by any means good with words," I shake my head. "Julia use to tell me, that sometimes, when you have so much to say, you end up not being able to say anything at all. So, I'm not going to say anything."

I grabbed my guitar, bringing the chair I was sitting on by Julia's casket. I faced her, beginning to play. "So your friend's been telling me, you've been sleeping with my sweater, and that you can't stop missing me." I sang every verse I wrote, directly to her. I finished the song, as stray tears fell from my eyes. "I'm half a heart without you."

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I was laying on the couch, Jake fast asleep on my chest. He was a month old now.

So far, he hasn't woken up yet. I took this opportunity to catch up on some much needed sleep.

I decided to take the year off of work. I had made plenty of money, with my job, and needed to be here for my son. He was all I had left.

There were nights, when I thought about the day he'd ask about Julia. It scared me. Sure, I had a lot of time to think about it, but it pained me to think about him growing up without a mother.

Mother's are more important to kids at this age. Sure, they'll grow up and be more into talking about sports with their dad, but there was a mother sized gap I couldn't fill.

The next morning, I woke up to a tiny hand touching my face. I slowly opened my eyes, to be met with a tiny pair of green ones. "Hello," I smile. "Let's go get something in our tummies."

I swiftly pick him up, carrying him to the kitchen. I held him in my arms, as I grabbed his bottle from the fridge. I looked at the calendar on the fridge, frowning to myself.

"You hungry?" I asked, sitting down and feeding him his bottle. Jake was a quiet baby. He didn't cry, unless he needed to be changed.

"Speaking of changing," I murmured to myself. I sniffed the air, smelling the odor. "Oh no," I groaned.

Once I finished feeding him, I grabbed a banana and quickly ate it, before carrying Jake upstairs to be changed. After I got him ready for the day, I took him with me to my bathroom, so I could shower.

I turned on the shower and placed Jake in his swing in the bathroom. I changed out of my clothes, getting into the shower and leaving the door open, so I could watch Jake. "I've never felt closer to you Jakey," I laughed to myself.

We went about our day eating, changing diapers, and sleeping. "Do you want to go visit mommy?" I ask him. I was laying on the couch, with my knees up. Jake rested on my knees, the two of us staring at each other. "Of course you do," I tickle his belly, as he lets out a little giggle.

The two of us got into jackets, since it was winter and not entirely warm. I buckled him into his car seat, then got myself situated in the front. We drove in silence to the cemetery.

I pulled Jake's stroller out of the trunk, pushing him to where his mom was. "Here we are," I sigh. I took him out of his stroller, the two of us sitting in front of her stone.

"We just came to visit you. I miss you a lot. This whole parenting thing isn't easy, but I'm catching on," I sigh. "Jake's growing everyday. He's going to grow up to be an amazing person, Julia. I promise I'll take care of him." I sat in silence, just completely missing her.

Time was passing quickly, so I stood up to leave. "Well, Jake and I better get going. Merry Christmas Julia. We love you."

A/N: Man this story is getting quite close to the end. Only three more regular chapters, then the epilogue. ALSO NEW ONE DIRECTION PERFUME!!! YAY!!! Also apologies: it's 3 in the morning and this chapter wasn't 100% edited.