31 Days.. (a zayn malik fanfiction)

chapter 28-leaving

CHAPTER 28: LEAVING

“What?” I asked blankly staring back at him, “I’m sorry but I thought I just heard you say you were coming back with me?” 

“I did say that.” he replied smirking,

I leaned my head forward tilting my chin slightly, ”..to Australia?” I asked lowering my tone,

“That’s the plan!” he strangely chirped,

I stepped one foot backwards and folded my arms, gawping at him, “Okay and when did you decide on this?”

“Erm, just then!” he admitted placing his hands onto each of my arms while smiling, “I thought you’d be happy about this!” he laughed,

Okay. I wasn’t going to lie, of course I was happy with this. It meant that we didn’t have to part our ways, and well, separate our lives from one another. The thought of it excited me, overwhelmed me, but I wasn’t one to be selfish. Zayn already had a thriving and promising career with the boys, I would be a fool to agree with his decision and let him throw all that away just for me. The harsh reality was that we were from two different worlds that simply could not be joined, despite us being joint at the heart. The moment I had been dreading from the very beginning was fast approaching with time clearly not on our side.

He took my silence as a signal to go on, “I’ve always loved Australia y’know? It would be great to live there.” his eyes seeked approval,

“You’re a complete idiot Zayn!” I frowned scratching my head, “Do you even hear what you’re saying right now? You? Live in Australia?” I began to pace in the small spot in front of the both of us nervously, “You belong here Zayn! Your life is here, you just can’t!”

He stopped my pacing as he grabbed my shoulders pulling me to a halt, “No. I belong with you.”

His words although completely cheesy and cliche, still enabled my weakness for him as I sighed and fell into his arms. All I wanted was him. There was only one thing in this world that held all of my happiness and yet it was the one thing that life did not let me have. I didn’t know how we were going to work this out, but him coming with me to Australia was definitely not an option. The only other option left was for me to give up my own career and stay here. But was I willing to give up everything I’ve worked so hard for all of my life for him? The answer should of been obvious but as the question continued to sink in and dwell inside of my mind, it wasn’t as easy to answer anymore. 

I pulled myself from his chest and looked up at him, “I don’t know what we’re going to do Zayn,” my facial expression now serious than ever,“but I’m not letting you come back with me. For a holiday yes sure, but not to live Zayn… you know that’s impossible.”

He shook his head cupping mine in his hands, “This isn’t up to you, I’ve made my decision. If moving to Australia is what it takes to keep you by my side, then that’s what I’m going to do.” he leaned closer and kissed my forehead, “I don’t think you realise how much I need you Holly.”

I sighed closing my eyes trying to take in the moment, knowing his words were exact to how I was feeling. The truth was that I needed him just as much as he needed me.

“I honestly can’t see life without you even if it were only a day..” I opened my eyes again meeting his stare, “but I refuse to let you choose me over your career. Over the boys!”

Before he could argue back, the rings of his BlackBerry broke through the tension that had been filling inside of the room. He pulled out his phone from his pocket and answered, still staring at me.

“Hello?” … “Oh Lou, shit, I forgot! I’ll be outside in a sec.” …. “Okay bye!”

He bit his lip and took my hand, “I, erm, forgot we had a meeting with Paul today. I need to get going.” he said stepping backwards a bit while tugging at his earring,