The love of Matthew Espinosa

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Siena Gilbert

Hari ini, Sharon mengajakku shopping dan pergi ke salon. Tidak biasanya dia se-semangat ini mengajakku. Biasanya malah aku yang mengajaknya duluan.

Sambil menunggu rambutku selesai, aku tenggelam dalam pikiran yang sedikit menggangguku seharian ini.

Well, honestly, i'm waiting for Matt to text me this whole day but he didn't.

Lately, Matt biasanya selalu mengirimiku pesan tiap hari. Akhir-akhir ini memang hubunganku dengan Matt menjadi lebih dekat. Seperti kemarin, hanya aku yang mau dia hubungi.

Well, if i said that i had hopes to be more 'closer' to him, does that make any sense now?

"What's up in that little head, lil' sis?"

Aku mengadahkan kepalaku dan menatap Sharon yang mungkin sedari tadi memang sudah memperhatikanku melamun.

"Do you know where is Matt today?"

Sharon terlihat sedikit terkejut namun malah menahan tawanya.

"He said he need to finish a few things today. Why?"

Whoa.

I didn't expect that answer.......

I thought my sister will have no idea about Matthew. But the fact that she knew where Matthew is, just breaks my heart.

Does this mean that Matt kept in touch with my sister but not with me?

"Why?" Lanjut Sharon bertanya.

Does this mean, that, Matthew's just using me these whole time to get closer with Sharon?

Great. Now just great.

"Nope. I'm just wondering where he was."

"Gah, Siena, look at your face!" Sharon kali ini tidak bisa menahan tawanya. "Calm down, Aaron told me that. It's not like Matt talked to me. You're still the one babe."

Dang it, Sis. I let out a sigh so hard.

"Whatsoever."

"Hey," kata Sharon. "Don't pretend like you don't care about him while he's the first thing that came up to your mind when you wake up every morning."

"It's not like that."

"Then what it is? What's up with you two?" Sharon menatapku benar-benar penasaran kali ini, "i'm your sister, you should've told me about it. Maybe i could give you some sissy advice?"

Aku hanya tertawa namun tiba-tiba aku merasa apa yang baru saja dikatakan Sharon benar. Mungkin dia bisa memberiku nasihat.

Atau setidaknya, mengeluarkan apa yang menjadi pikiranku akhir-akhir ini akan membuatku merasa lebih baik setelahnya.

"It just..i don't know. Matt was always texts me every second of everyday but today's just different. He didn't even text me a simple 'hello' or 'morning' today. He was just like MIA and i'm afraid if he still get mad about Shawn's trying to kiss me the other day. Look, i don't even get it why he have to be mad about that."

"You still clueless that much, don't you?"

Aku menatap Sharon tidak mengerti. What exactly am i missing?"

"What do you mean?"

"He likes you. He. Obviously. Like. You."

And that words just hit me. I always wanted that thing to happen since forever but i knew that it's impossible.

Why would you said that, Sharon? It breaks my heart to hope on something that will never ever happen.

"Don't give me a hope on something that absolutely hopeless."