Beautiful Saddness (a joshleen fanfic)

What?- Chapter 17

Lilys POV:

I really hate myself right now. I put all this worry on my family. While my parents were home getting some rest Noah is here. "Noah you need to go get some sleep!" I said.
"I don't want to leave you alone."
"Noah, I'll be fine. I promise."
"You sure?"
"Yes! Please get some rest I'm worried about you."
"Okay...mom and dad will be here soon. Bye Lily love you."
"Bye love you too."
He walked out. I grabbed my phone and decided to text Adam. It's been a little strange between us and I hate it. I love him and I want to be with him for the rest of my life.
L- hey☺️
A- hey 😘
L- I'm sorry things have been strange between us. I really want things to get better
A- I was thinking the same thing. I really love you Lily. I hate this though. I want to talk to you face to face. Are you home?
L- actually no...I'm in the hospital...
A- please tell me your visiting someone!
L- I'm not 😭
A- what happened?!
L- you're going to hate me.
A- lil please.
L- I might have tried to kill myself......
A- omg Lily!! What the hell?!
L- I'm so so so sorry. I just felt like everyone hated me!
A- are your parents still mad?
L- they were until I got in here.
A- are your parents or any family members there?
L- no I made them go get some sleep.
A- do you mind if I come and visit you?
L- no not at all! See you soon ❤️
I put my phone down and closed my eyes. I started thinking about what could have happened if I did do it. I would have hurt so many people. My family, friends, Adam, the fans. Why would I do something like that. "Lily, you have a visitor." The nurse said. "Is it Adam?" I asked. "Yes. Do you want him to come in?" She said. I nodded and Adam walked in. "Hi" he said shyly. He walked towards me and kissed my cheek. "See! This is what I'm talking about! It's weird between us. We were fine texting but now it's all awkward." I said. "Lil I'm so sorry! I don't know how to change it." He said. "Maybe we could just ignore it and it will go away." I suggested. He nodded and sat on the chair next to my bed. "No! Come sit with me!" I said am trying to be cute." He laughed and sat next to me. He held my hand. "Lily why would you do this to yourself. I hate seeing you like this." He said after awhile. I just started crying. I hate myself for doing this. I hurt Adam. He wiped away my tear and kissed me. Just then my dad walked in. Adam quickly jumped into the chair. "What the hell is this?!" My dad said angrily. "Dad! Adam is my boyfriend! Of course I want him here!" I say. My dad just stares at Adam. "You should leave now." My dad finally said. "Bye lil." Adam said quietly and rushed off. I stared at my dad angrily. "Lily! I don't want you seeing that boy." He said and sat down. "I love him." I said quietly. My dad didn't speak. I can't believe he's acting like this. Something happened one time and now he doesn't want me seeing the man I love. My mom walked in.

Colleens POV:

"Hey lil!" I said. I noticed Josh and Lily both looked angry. "Josh come here for a minute." I said. Josh got up and we went into the hallway.
"Josh what happened?"

"Lily is still seeing Adam." He said

"So..."

"What do you mean so?! That boy is nothing but trouble!"

"Josh! She loves him. They both made the decision."

"I don't care! I don't want her seeing him."

"You can't do that."

"Yes I can. I am her father and what i say goes."

"You've been a real ass lately"

"Protecting my daughter is being an ass?!"

"No! You are being over the top. You're not protecting her! How would you feel if my dad made me stop seeing you?"

"I wouldn't listen. I love you and nothing could keep me away from you."

"Now that is how Lily feels about Adam."
Josh doesn't speak after that. He knows I'm right. We walk back into Lilys room. "You can see Adam." Josh said and sat down. Lily looked so happy. I haven't seen her like this in forever.