We Could Have So Much More

Chapter six

I'm an idiot, a cunt, a horrible horrible person.
I sit there cross legged and eyes that can tear up any minute.

" Hey Em" Kevin greets me.
He notices my closed body language.
" Kevin, We need to break up."
I confess.
" What?"
I nod. I bite my inner lip.
" Look if it's about physical affection, I don't like it because I know you from the past and-"

I stop him. " Kevin no."
I shake my head. " It's not you, it's me."
I sigh. " You won't understand."

I walk away and bump into Trevor.
" Hey Em, Why did you walk away last da-"
I push him so hard away.
" Nothing happened that day."
He looks at me wide eyed.
" If you say a word, I'll accuse you of sexual harassment." I warn him.
I chose to walk away both from Trevor and Kevin.
I need time to myself.

" I heard you wore a short dress yesterday!!" Helen wheezes.
I ignore Helen. My eyes are searching for Claire.
She's with-
With Sean.
" Claire has a crush on Seth, right?"
I shrug.
AND SUDDENLY SEAN KISSES CLAIRE.

" YO WHAT THE HELL!"
Helen screams.
" What the fuck, Sean?" I mutter.
I feel relief when Claire pushes him.
Sean seems to get frustrated.
I walk there to stand up for her, be there for her.
" What's happening?" I inquire.
" She has a crush on my brother!"
He yells. " After all I've done for her!!"

" Seth is hotter." Helen shamelessly comments.
" Not Seth, Steven. He's ENGAGED."
" What a plot twist." I comment while turning heads with Helen.
Typical sensitive Claire starts tearing up.
" Oh my baby." Helen grieves.
She hugs her.
" What did you do for her anyway?"
I ask Sean.
He's speechless.
" You did it in your stupid little head." I snap his forehead.

" This is all my fault." Claire sobs.
" I'm just a disaster."

" Yeah he's way older than you as well"
Sean scolds her. " YOU'RE SEVENTEEN AND HE'S TWENTY THREE YOU IDIOT."

" Shut up Sean." Helen is just as angered as I am at this little boy.
" Yeah shut you you little sophomore shit."
Helen teams up with me.

" Respect your seniors."

" Go finish your trigonometry homework."

" Do your ABCs."

" Y'all bullying my brother?" Seth shows up from no where.
He looks at Claire and pats her head.

" Well detention for you." Seth points at me and then a wrathful hall teacher.

As a true friend I did not even wonder why Helen was not granted detention.
I just sat there and made
Paper stars, roses and birds.

And how lucky I am to be joined by Trevor.
I mean he's in detention everyday for talking back to the teachers.
He would have definitely talked back to me earlier today if I would have given him the chance.

He looks at me as if I've had betrayed him, been a traitor or stole something from him.
I just don't look at him after one glance.
I continue twisting paper.

There is awkward silence for while,
I keep on twisting,
he keeps watching.

Claire has too much going on in her life,
I should really call her after detention.

" Am I at least allowed to have conversations with you?" He breaks our silence.
I shake my head.
" Why not?" He questions me furiously.
I sigh loudly indicating he should shut the hell up.

Gina enters the detention room. " Hey I really need both of you." She pleads

" I'm not dancing again." I order.

" I just need to record you playing basketball."

I bite my lip.

"Fine."