We Could Have So Much More

Chapter Eight

" It's alright Claire, you deserve so much better." Helen Comforts.

" HE DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG." Claire laments, " I DON'T EVEN HAVE A REASON TO HATE HIM."

" Yes, you do!" I object, " He flirted with you despite of being engaged."

She pauses, shrugs. " I have class." She walks alway.

" Hey, do you still have something for Kevin?" Helen asks me.
I chuckle. " Helen, it's alright. I've always known you. You've had a thing for him."

She looks at me, wide eyed.
" It's alright."
She smirks,
" Good because he asked me out yesterday."
I smile even though there's an empty feeling in me. But you know what, I need to be stable in a relationship.

" Well I have class." Helen walks away.
I don't have class, Mrs. Smith is off today.

I start solving a maths worksheet.
" Hey." Trevor greets me.
" Oh hi." I say.
" Just to be clear-" he pinches his eye, " I did not harass you, right?"
I giggle, " No, Trevor, No."
He has a seat across to me.
" Okay so you free today for another?"

" Ah I have to study and work out."

" I have a place for you."

I sigh.
" Maybe tomorrow."
" Fine with me." He tosses his hands in the air and walks away.
I get up and wipe the crumbs on me and
And
And
And
.

I see Kevin kissing Helen..

Why? Why the hell? He'd never wanna kiss me? I thought that was a him problem.

" Hey Trevor." I run back to him.
He turns back.
I place my hands on his shoulders.
" I'm free today for a bit."
He faces Kevin and Helen.
His eyebrows raise.
" Fine with me."

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Chapter seven

We take the bus, get down together, he goes to his fake house's backyard, we get on a red car this time.

" So we're gonna fuck in this car now?" I ask.

" Nah, I said I knew a place."

"oh, I hope you own it."

He smirks, " Come sit at front."

He pulls my hand, and I get seated.
He gives me his phone to connect the Bluetooth.

" Passcode?"
" Two, four, one, two, zero, zero."

I did not expect him to give me the pass like that but I enter it.
" What should I play?" I look at him.

He looks at me from the corner of his eye. " Arctic Monkeys, what else?"

I feel the need to play an underrated song, so I play Teddy Picker.

And it's the thousandth time that's it's even bolder
Don't be surprised when you get bent over

I sing along with it. Trevor giggles at my Vibing.

Look at this.
" French lake hotel?"
I'm surprised it's a huge boring building with no lake or touch of french.

" You expected me to fuck you in some grassland close to a lake?"

Now that he says it, I feel stupid.

" I don't want insects on my ass." He cracks.

" My Dad owns this hotel so we don't need I'D and shit."

Okay now my doubts are clear.

He sneaks me into a hotel room.
I switch the lights off.
His lips meet mine and within seconds so does his tongue.
His tongue keeps moving and he slowly pins me
On the bed.

He buttons my shirt softly one upon time.
After unbuttoning my shirt, he takes his off and I take mine off.
I look at the place I gave him a hickey.
I kiss that spot.
He grins and gets a hold of my waist.
Kisses me again. He pauses. Kisses me again.
We bend after every kiss.
My back accidentally meets the back switch AND DAMN. THE LIGHTS TURN ON.

" Oh-" We groan.
The lights hurt our eyes.
I rub my eyes.

" What's this?" Trevor asks.
Hand on my thigh.
The Solid in my chest flows three ways.
" How'd you get these scars?"
He asks in continuous tone.
" Um, from um."

He keeps on looking at them.
" These are self harm scars." He concludes.
" Is something bothering you?" He acquires as if he's my therapist or a good dad.

I don't even have the confidence to look at him anymore.
" Okay I get it, you don't want to talk about it."
He concludes giving me sort of relief.

There's an awkward silence, I don't like.
I get up and wear my clothes.
He's seated there in deep thought.

" The food here is not very good." He breaks the silence.
" I'll take you to my favourite place."
He hands me by back pack.

I feel like I've lost the sense to speak so I follow him.

I sit in the front. I bite my lip, my head is facing downwards.
I feel so embarrassed I don't wanna speak.

He notices, he moves my hair behind my ear.
He kisses my cheek.

" It's nothing to be ashamed of." He states, but I know he's freaked out, I can sense it.

He takes me to this cafe and he takes my bag for me along with his.

We sit at a beautiful booth.
" What's this cafe called?" I ask, I figure if I stay quiet, I'll make this way more tense.

" Jasmine." He says, " What do you want to eat?"
I haven't worked out today so I don't plan on anything junk.
I don't want to be a turn off so I just order a drink.
" A cucumber shake I guess."

He seems disappointed by my order.
" Okay then I'll take the Vanila milkshake." He says.
He gives our order. And places his chin on the surface of his hands.
" You're really beautiful." He says.

" Every girl you've talked to, has been told that." I mutter.

He laughs. " I've told them they're pretty."
He laughs a little more, " You're beautiful."

I do not react to his so called compliment.

" You need help with Math?" He points at my bag.
The boy who was sitting across me was now sitting adjacent to me.

He takes my math book out.
" You don't even take Math." I say.
" Because I know everything." He gives a smug smirk.