Letters: A Tokka Fanfic

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Sokka's POV

"What does it matter to you anyways?" I hesitated at her question, not really sure what to say. Why did it matter to me? I don't know.

"It's not that it's hard to believe I just... I'm worried about you." Yeah, it has to be that...right?

"I can take care of myself, Sokka." I swallowed hard, knowing she was right. What am I doing? I was supposed to be mending our relationship and instead I was butting into her business like some jealous boyfriend. A jealous... Shit. My heart started pounding louder as I realized that Katara was right. I was jealous of Satoru.

"I know you can, Toph. Trust me, I know, but that doesn't mean I can't worry." I sounded as dazed as I was and Toph gave me a weird look in response before sighing.

"He's a good guy Sokka. And it's not like I have many people lining up to date me." It was blunt but still sounded so foreign and wrong coming from her. Who wouldn't want her? She was gorgeous and strong and funny and wonderful and I was the idiot who didn't realize how he felt until now. No wonder Suki was so annoyed with me.

"Says who?"

"Sokka, come on. Take a look around- does it really look like anyone is interested? No. Satoru has been consistent in his attempts and I don't really have anything to lose." I'm interested. But I can't say that. Not now. Not after how long I left her alone or when I'm trying so hard to build up trust again.

"Do you like him?" Don't say yes.

"Not yet," I breathed a sigh of relief before she continued, "but I'm sure I will eventually."

I wanted to tell her not to try. I wanted to tell her he wasn't worth it. Spirits I wanted to tell her to give me that chance. But not now. Not after everything I'd put her through. So instead I just stayed quiet as she walked into the house.

It felt too silent as I laid in bed. Nothing felt right as I mulled over her words from earlier. She and Satoru had nothing in common. He was quiet and shy and businesslike and she was strong and capable and funny and wonderful. She shouldn't be settling just because he's here. But that's the problem. He was here. While I was off being an idiot, he was here to court her: here trying to make her feel special. Had I ever told her how amazing she was? I thought she knew that but now I'm not so sure. She always boasted about being the greatest earthbender ever; it never occurred to me she might have doubts about herself. Why didn't I notice earlier how important she was to me? If I had... just maybe things could have been different. Just maybe... I could've gotten her to pay attention to me instead.