Always Love You (Narry) (Boyxboy)

34.Not An Illusion

*Niall's POV*

Water ran down my skin, washing away the smell of that horrid hospital. I was trying to think of my next move but I kept drawing a blank. The only thing I could think of was the dumb conversation I had with Lou just before he left. It kept replaying in my mind, over and over again. I understood why he was upset but I just think he was being a wee bit dramatic. Which I guess I should expect that, seeing as it is Louis we're talking about here. I let out a long sigh as I turned off the water.

I stepped out of the shower, grabbing a towel to dry my hair. I walked over to the mirror and looked at myself, patting down my body, and tying the towel around my waist. Now I just need to find briefs to put on. I walked out of the bathroom, my white briefs instantly caught my eye. I picked them up and slid them on, dropping the towel to the floor. Then I sat propped up against the back of the bed, turning on the telly, not bothering to get dressed.

The first thing to come on was some entertainment news show. I was not really interested in it, but nonetheless, I decided to just leave it on. I figured I wouldn't be here much longer and there wouldn't be much time to find something good anyways. I wiggled myself around and adjusted the pillows to get more comfortable on the bed, as I awaited for Lou to get back.

Several minutes had passed and I was feeling like I could go for a nap. I shut my eyes, trying to do just that, until I heard my name come from the telly. I quickly grabbed the remote turning up the volume. It was all about my death and how it was a loss for the music community. They mentioned the boys and that they were unable to receive comment from them, but said that Simon had made a comment. They proceeded to show a video of Simon saying the boys would be taking a break, but it would not be the end of One direction and that I would be missed dearly.

They continued with old videos of us, and spoke about some of the several trends on Twitter about me. I was starting to lose interest in the show until they switched to a paparazzi video of Harry leaving the hospital with me mum. My body became warm all over, my eyes started to water and I felt an intense pain in my chest. I couldn't bring myself to take my eyes off the screen.

You could hear a few sobs come from me mum, and I hated that. I began to focus on Harry though. He had his head down and I couldn't see him very well. He wasn't making any noise and you couldn't really see his face. Although, there was a short moment in the video where Harry looked up at the camera, and the look on his face, killed me. For the first time since I thought up this plan, I began to regret my decision and an overwhelming feeling of guilt consumed me.

I brought my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around them, and resting my chin on them. Tears started rolling down my cheeks and only one thing was on my mind at that moment. I might have just made the biggest mistake of my life and when Harry brought his hands up to his face and wiped away tears, that's when I became sure. I really messed everything up this time.

*Louis' POV*

As I sat next to Harry in the car, I began to second guess myself and my decision to take him to see Niall. I was startled when I heard my car start without me starting it. I looked to Harry and he did his best to give me a small smile. "So Lou, I started the car for you. Are we going to go, so you can show me whatever it is you have to show me?" He asked me, sounding so broken. The sad, devastated tone of Harry's voice made up my mind for me. 

Without responding, I backed out of my parking spot and exited the car park. When we got on to the road, and Harry noticed the direction I was headed in, he scrunched up his eyebrows. "Lou why are we headed out of London? I can't be too long, Maura will worry. Why can't you just tell me what's going on?" he asked. I let out a saddened sigh and just shook my head no. 

Harry rested his head on the window and I noticed he was crying. I slipped my hand into his, grasping it tightly "everything is going to be ok Haz, I promise" I whispered. He squeezed his eyes shut tight, but it didn't stop his tears. "Nothing can or will ever be ok again Boobear, he's gone and I'll never have him back. I'll never get to touch his skin, or kiss his lips, or hold him in my arms again. I'll never see his breathtaking blue eyes again, or watch how his face lights up when he smiles, or how the tip of his nose turns bright red when he cries. How can anything ever be ok again? My reason for living, for existing, is gone." 

His words broke my heart and I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. I continued to squeeze his hand tightly, rubbing my thumb over the back of his hand to soothe him. "Oh Hazza, I just need you to trust me. I know I must not be making much sense to you right now, but once everything all plays out you will understand. I promise you that Haz."

We pulled into the car park of the hotel Niall was staying at and once I found a space, I parked and shut off the engine. "Ok Haz, I need you to wait here for a minute ok?" I asked him. "Why Lou, can't I just come with you? I thought the whole point was to show me something?" The tone of his voice and the look on his face made it impossible to tell him no. "Sure Haz, let's go." We exited the car and headed inside.

My heart was beating so fast. I was shaking and extremely nervous. I know Niall is going to kill me for this, but I can't stand seeing Harry like this. I am so worried about how he is going to handle what is about to happen. Harry was following my steps closely and I could tell he was still shaken up from his little breakdown in the car. There has got to be a way that this will work out for the better.

I pushed the button to call for the lift and Harry stood at my side as we waited. After a few moments the lift doors opened and we stepped inside. I pushed the appropriate button and we rode upstairs. "I wish we could go back, back to when things were so good, so simple." Harry whispered as the lift doors opened again signaling we had arrived. I nodded my head and took a deep breath stepping out of the lift and heading to the room. 

*Harry's POV*

When we finally reached what I assumed was Louis's hotel room door, he stopped and turned around to face me. "Alright Hazza, I need you to listen to me very carefully. What's behind this door is what I want to show you. I'm not sure how you're going to handle it but you need to see. I want you to take a deep breath and try to stay calm. Everything will be explained just keep that in mind." Louis whispered.

Everything he has said, has just continuously confused me more and more. He is making no sense and I just want to see what he's talking about and get back to Maura. She has already tried to phone me twice. 

I nodded my head to let him know I understood what he said. He smiled at me before he spun back around, pulling out the key and opening the door. There was a small hallway that led to the living area of the room. We stepped in and Louis shut and locked the door. What I heard next, I couldn't believe. "Lou, is that you? Did you get me hair dye? What took ya so long?"