Always Love You (Narry) (Boyxboy)

10.Lost In Confusion

*Harry's POV*

I answered my phone as I watched the boy I love leave the room. "Hello, mum?" I said into the phone. "Hi Harry, I have been trying to phone you for a couple days now. What on earth is going on?" she asked through the phone. "I have just been really busy with the lads and taking care of Niall" I said in my defense. "Oh hmm...about that, is something going on between the two of you Harold? I want the truth!" she semi shouted at me through my phone.

I started panicking, all I could think about is how much I love Niall and how I couldn't lose my mum. I have never been so lost on what to do. She would hate me if I tell her Niall is my boyfriend. "Harold I asked you a question?" she bellowed into the phone making my ear hurt. "W...What do you mean?" I asked her trying to act like I had no clue what she meant.

"Bloody hell Harold, you know EXACTLY what I mean" she said with anger in her voice. "Uh n...nothing is going on mum I swear!" I said each word breaking my heart as it left my mouth. I hated lying to her and I really hated lying about my feelings for Niall. I just wasn't ready to tell her yet, plus if the lads' plan doesn't work I can't date him anyways.

"Then why did you bloody kiss him in front of the whole world Harry? Do you want the world to think that you are a fag? Do you even comprehend how that makes you look and how that makes this family look. That was a disgrace!" she shouted as she became even more angry.

I couldn't take it anymore and I just snapped "I DIDN'T KISS HIM MUM, HE KISSED ME! HE'S THE FAG NOT ME! I CAN'T STAND HIM!!!" I hissed in a very desperate attempt to convince my mum that I wasn't gay. Then my heart stopped as I heard my door creek and I turned around seeing him, the love of my life, my boyfriend, trying to hold back tears.

Regret, sorrow, fear, misery, and pain came over me all at once. "H...Harry y..you can't s..stand me?" he said in a small voice and a flood of tears began falling from his eyes, the beautiful blue eyes I never want to see cry, the ones that tears are freely falling from now all because of me. "Niall...." I started as I stepped towards him but he took off running.

I threw my phone across the room and started hyperventilating and before I could even begin to attempt to steady my breathing I took off after him as fast as I could.

*Louis' POV*

The boys and I were in the Living room all sat on the couch, Zayn and Liam were asleep, and I was just watching the Telly while we waited for Haz to get off the phone and come join us. After little while Niall went upstairs to check on Haz. I protested at first because I didn't know what would be going on up there but he went anyways.

He was only gone for a few minutes before he was running back down the stairs, tears streaming down his face, and darted out the front door before anyone could stop him. Then I heard Haz scream after Niall commanding him to wait but no one was stopping Nialler, he was well on his way out the door before Haz was even down the stairs.

I grabbed Haz and shoved him into the kitchen so we could talk. He tried to leave running after Ni again but I pushed him against the fridge so he couldn't. "Lou STOP I have to go after him" He said through his tears. "Forget it Hazza he's long gone just give him some time to cool off." I said in a warning tone.

"No you don't understand he wasn't supposed to hear that, he wasn't, I didn't mean it, I swear I didn't, please Lou, please I have to talk to him!" He said becoming frantic. "NO Harold! STOP! Calm down! First tell me, what did you do?" I asked him scared to know the answer.

Shame and disgrace became apparent on his face as he looked into my eyes through his curls "I...I called him a fag and said I couldn't stand him and that he kissed me. But it was only because I was on the phone with my mum and she just kept pushing me, you know how she can be sometimes and I was too afraid to say the truth and she just kept pushing me and I just shouted that out to make her shut up, not meaning any of it, but he heard it all." He said to me falling to the floor and covering his face.