Just to Clarify: Life is boring when you don't have someone to accompany you when working. Beaumont is once again working in the shop and Evelyn isn't with him that day. She had to go out of town with her family that day from what her house keeper had said when he went to get her earlier that morning.
He wanted to have a early morning walk due to walking up in a bad state. He had a nightmare this morning, he hates when they happen all of a sudden. Aren't you supposed to be at peace when your asleep?
No, the simple answer would have been but no one truly has control over their mind. What are nightmares, why do we get them, how are they created? Some would say that nightmares are scary because you one day realise that they were created by your own mind but the severe night-mares is what happened to you in real life.
The memory or the nightmare would morph into something horrifying that you can't tell if you are living it or that your dreaming it but nightmares are dreams too. The worst nightmare Beaumont ever witness is when you experience the tragic nightmare with your eyes wide awake.
Ever since his mother passed away, he would try to hide his emotions away. He would pretend that everything is okay when truly its not. He would go about his day with a smile on his face. He didn't show people that he was hurting in the inside when honestly he was hurting badly.
That only seemed to increase the older he gotten and when a second nightmare entered his life. He has lived on from that day with placing a smile on his face and messing around with one night stands. However that stopped when he laid eyes on Evelyn, but obviously a person can't help you with your nightmares.
They can only be there for you, even if they don't even realise that they being there for you. Beau-mont hasn't told Evelyn about his past, it's soon to tell her, and she hasn't said much about her past but he knows. Everyone has a past that doesn't want to be known.
Beaumont has felt and endured pain of verbal and physical abuse throughout the years.
He of course will never tell a soul on what happened to him and he doesn't feel like he ever will but the one day he wanted comfort. The comfort person was not in reach and he feels selfish for even burdening Evelyn with his feelings. But she was the first person on his mind when he woke up after that.
He needed someone, he needs a lifeline.
He hates that has had nightmares, the worst thing about them is that you thought you have control over your own mind. From all the other things you chose in your life, you don't really get to choose what your nightmares are, even if you tried. You don't pick them, they pick you and that's the underlying meaning that your body has no control over what they want.
Beaumont thought that we had our own choice over our body?
Our mind is corrupted but its the most powerful organ in our body that helps us send signals to our body parts to voluntary move on our own but when were asleep are mind has a way of its own.
Beaumont is still trying to understand why the universe would grasp the people with the most awareness have the greatest nightmares.
Probably because he witness a nightmare before he even fully knew what a nightmare was - except the monster underneath the bed or in the closet. But really you have to live day in and out that you must live with the knowledge that your own mind is working against you.
Even in your times of vulnerability like when your sleeping, the nightmares in your head are frighten for the very same reason Beaumont is, and that everyone believes they should not be there in the first place. They aren't real. They shouldn't be.
The said nightmare once again comes from the eyes, when you're awake. You see this nightmare when you're sleep, because it's when your at your lowest. Your mind corrupts you to show you want you need to see from turning it into something more sinister. Beaumont has watched his accident being created and mended into different situations in his mind because of what it brings to you.
Beaumont's mind and everyone else's is a murderous adversary, an enemy under your own skin and nothing is quite so terrifying.
So within his brown dark eyes he has witnessed and felt such severe discomfort. Never had Beaumont dealt with anything more difficult and torment in his life than his own soul. He will never escape his own mind as it's there torment-ing him 24/7.
His very own inflicted nightmares of what happened few years ago but this nightmare is way worse - worse throbbing pain he's been through even he can't believe that being scared of his own corrupted mind is worse than being in that situation again.
The thought of that makes a twinge in his heart for ever thinking like that but wouldn't anyone in his situation? Believe this torture of the mind is worse than being physically hurt because you have to live with this nightmare all the time.
Will Beaumont ever be free from his own mind?
But Beaumont just has to keep some positivity in his mind that he will make it through this wicked mind of his. That he has to hold on, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that he would hopefully one day be saved.
To be saved from this never ending cycle of nightmares that not only Beaumont goes through
but everyone being tormented by the allurement of darkness, even the purest of hearts go through the dorment.
Living with the nightmare is worse than the mind, only those who intend to bypass the nightmare in the mind is when they know that the darkness in their life is existing and is closing in.
While Beaumont looks out through the stores window, the moon outside shines brightly through to allow him some light. He holds on to that. That he can make it and that he won't crawl into the darkness, fall back into the lightness that he knows all to well as that can be the path that reaches him back on to his lifeline.
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Romance"Promise me this is forever." She whispered softly. "I promise, my darling Evelyn."
