Kidnapped Mate

Breaking the news

After that, the two didn't let go of each other. They were always holding hands and spending as much time together as it was humanly possible. Harry would need to go to Hogwarts the following day and the two were dreading that moment. A few days ago he had written a letter to Dumbledore explaining the situation, the fact that he was a werewolf now, Remuse's mental health and the fact that they were mates. A response had come in the same night where it said that the Headmaster was going to think of a way to allow Harry to travel quickly in between Hogwarts and Grimmauld place if Remus needed anything.

Today another letter arrived, with it came two necklaces and the explanation of them being a port key that would work in both places if activated with a password. To say Remus was relieved with these news was a understatement. After they found out about their status of mates, it became very clear that the older man was the more submissive of the two, and that meant that he tended to feel very vulnerable without Harry, the fact that he had also been through a traumatic event recently didn't help at all.

- Remy? - Harry had just put his necklace on and felt like he needed to tell something to his mate before leaving for school.

- Yes? - he had also just put the piece of jewelry around his neck, he had been looking at it in a mirror.

- Before I go to Hogwarts, there's something I need to tell you.

- What is it? - he got a bit worried, Harry sounded quite serious.

- Come, sit with me... - he patted a spot beside him on the bed they had been sharing - I've been wanting to tell you this for about a week now... I just waited because you were still too shaken up by what happened.

- Okay? - he felt insecure now, what was going on? Apparently, Harry felt his uneasiness because he held his hand firmly.

- The day we rescued you, Sirius and I had to confront Grayback to know were you were... - he could hear Remuse's breath become a bit uneven, this was not going to be easy for him - The thing is, not everything went according to plan and Grayback was able to attack me.

When he said that he watched Remus take his hands over his mouth and his eyes strat to water. He was also shaking his head incredulously. At that point Harry knew Remus had understood what had happened, he brought the man to his embrace as he strated to cry. Harry too had to blink a few tears away.

- this is my falt - Remus spoke quietly - if I had been more careful you wouldn't need to go after me, this would never have happened.... Merlin, what did I do... this is not fair to you... I am so sorry...

He sobbed into Harry's chest. The boy didn't say anything yet, he just hugged Remus and tried to transmit to him a sensation of calmness.

- Remy, don't do this - Harry's voice was emotional - Never, blame yourself for that monster's actions. My life will be a bit harder from now on, but I know I'll be able to push through because I have you by my side.

Remus kept crying and Harry kept holding him as he repeated that everything would be alright. The two were still holding each other when the older werewolf finally stopped crying and calmed himself enough to fall asleep. Harry carefully tucked him in and went after Sirius. He found the man in the library, he seemed quite entertained by a book.

- Padfoot? - Sirius immediately looked up from the book and noticed the puffy red eyes of his godson.

- You told him? - he asked calmly. To that, Harry nodded - I'm guessing it didn't go well?

Harry nodded again, he walked over the couch the man was sitting and got comfortable by his side. Sirius put an arm over his shoulders.

- He blamed himself... - Harry sniffed as more tears escaped his eyes - It was so hard to watch him crying himself to sleep... It didn't matter what I said, he wouldn't accept that it wasn't his fault. How would any of this been his fault?! He was kidnapped for fucksake! It was an accident that happened along our way!

- Pup, I'm sorry to tell you this, but he's Remus. He blames himself for a lot of things that are not his fault. It's very much like someone I know - Sirius shook Harry's shoulders a bit and the boy snorted.

- I do that, don't I?

- Yep, now you know how we feel when we see you drowning yourself in guilt. Let me ask you. Does it change anything when we say that one thing isn't your fault when you truly believe that it is?

- no...

- So you know what he's going trough right now. Give him some time to process this new information. Until then, be there for him. You are his dominant mate, he needs you.

- yeah, you are right... I'll go check on him. Thanks, Padfoot.

- Anytime!

The boy ran back to their room to find Remus curled up on the bed, he was hugging Harry's pillow and crying his eyes out on it.

- Remy, what happened?! - Harry was quick to aproach the man and put a hand on his shoulder. What he did not expected was that he would flinch away from the touch.

- n-no please, I-I can't do this anymore, please! - came his fearful voice, it was than that Harry realized that Remus was having a nightmare.

- Remy, it's just a bad dream! - he once again grabbed the man's shoulders, even in his sleep he tried to escape the touch, this time Harry didn't allow him to - Remy, wake up! Remy!? - the man just kept struggling, and the boy was having a hard time not letting the man fall from the bed - REMUS!

That last scream was finally what brought him back to reality. Remus jolted up and frantically looked to all sides, when his eyes fell upon Harry he threw himself in the boy's arms. Harry caught him and brought him close, immediately passing his fingers through Remuse's hair hoping that it would calm him.

- It's alright, it was just a bad dream. I'm here with you.

After that the older werewolf fell back asleep without saying much. This time around Harry was not going to leave him alone, so he laid there beside him, falling asleep not long after. On the fallowing morning, the boy got all his things to board the Hogwarts express and was about to leave the house when a small voice that belonged to Remus reached his ears.

- do you really have to go?

- Unfortunately, I do - Harry aproached him and put a hand on his cheeck, the man leaned into the touch - Dumbledore said that I can come sleep with you, but I need to arrive with the Hogwarts express because there's a ministry employee over there this year. Will you be okay until tonight?

- Would be better if you stayed.

Harry than gave the man a loving kiss on the lips, which Remus gladly retributed.

- I'll be back after the opening feast, until then Sirius is here and he can be with you if you need anything.

- I know... it's just not the same.

- I love you, Remy.

- I love you too, Harry.

With that the boy left with a heavy heart.