CHAEYOUNG.
Everywhere I looked, people seemed to be on the edge. Today is the day that I will finally release the album. The past month has been so rigorous but fulfilling for me. I have never been heavily involved in the process until this. Jennie, Lisa and everyone from OA never made me feel like I didn't belong. We all spent hours and hours for the design, production among other things to make this record as authentic as possible. I have learned how easy going and fun Lisa is to be with. She was the technical sound director of the record and was with me every step of the way.
Ally handled all my schedules for promotions as well as public appearances together with Alison. Jennie has asked how I would feel for another world tour knowing that I just recently ended one when I was still with Universal. The details were laid out to Ally and me and everyone once the record production began. I had widened my eyes on the tour's coverage and I looked to Ally for support because I don't know if I can make it to all of those places.
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"Will this be okay, Chaeyoung? We could add more if you would want," Jennie said, sounding reluctant. We're currently in an emergency meeting at OA's building to discuss the possibility of doing another world tour.
"Are you kidding me, Jennie? There are places I have never been to in this list! This is such a gamble and to be perfectly honest with you, I don't know if I can do this," I said, sounding a little incredulous. Lisa chuckled.
"Rosie, come on, this should be fun eh? I can almost see the tickets selling out in these countries. The only thing left to do is to make sure that you're up to it. We all listened to the record and I must say, this is your best so far," Lisa said and wrapped an arm around Jennie.
"Of course I would do it. I'm just scared because I have never been on a tour this big! But there are a lot of what ifs going on in my mind right now. This is big! Are you guys sure we're really doing this?" I asked the room at large and what surprised me was that everyone cheered. I have to suppress an eyeroll because for one, the album hasn't been released yet and two, this could bring an end to OA's rising regimen in the international scene. The pressure is getting too real, I might fuck up. I felt a hand squeezing my arm gently. I looked to my side and saw Alice smiling at me, encouraging. I took a deep breath. silently praying.
"We'll do it then," I said finally and another round of cheers erupted in the room. It's too early to celebrate but their happiness is so contagious that I couldn't stop myself from grinning.
"Congratulations as early as now. OA has handled quite a few artists already but yours bring that satisfactory feeling I haven't felt in years. Well, except when I married, Lisa," Jennie murmured in my ear. I looked at her in disbelief.
"We all believe in you, Chaeyoung. I believe in you not because you're going to be my top artist but because I know you had it in you. Trust in yourself too, yeah? All of this happened for a reason to prepare you for something big. Something that you might probably want all your life." I stared at Jennie intently. I didn't miss the double meaning of her words and she's smiling like I have never seen her smiling properly before.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked.
"You'll see. I promise," she whispered and hugged me before turning away. I just stared at the latter's retreating figure, trying to shake off the feeling that she knows something that I don't.
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Billboard:
Roseanne's Life Without You, enters at #1 in the US.
