Hey guyth.
First of all, thank you guys for staying with this story after all this time. I know that it took me almost a year to complete it, but here we are.
A little back story, this is originally titled La Vida Sin Ti which yeah, translates to Life Without You. I wrote this I think some time in 2019 and not originally a Chaesoo fanfic. I only became hardcore Blackpink fan in late 2020's because of Lovesick Girls. Lol.
Initially when I wrote this, I just wanted to vent after someone left me without any word. No explanations. Nothing. My mind has been a complete mess because I don't understand why someone would do that. I mean, it's much easier to just tell me everything straight to my face but then I finally realize as I progress on writing this that there are things that are left unsaid. As much as it will hurt, it is what it is. I have come to terms with myself that I will never get the answer that I needed. Some people are just not meant to stay in our lives and that everything happens for a reason. We have to move on eventually and looking back, I never regretted anything. Maybe regretting a little that I never realized this sooner.
The nightmare in the prologue actually happened in a real dream. (I don't know if that's the right description. Lol. But yeah I have dreamt of that, March 08, 2019.) Basically everything in that first part actually happened in real life. Finishing writing this story brings me inexplicable relief and I feel free of whatever has happened then. Tonight, I'm finally letting go of all the questions that I needed answers to, all the anger, the hurt, the frustrations, the disappointments. I have already accepted the fact that it all ended that year for me and no matter how scared I am right now to try again, I will eventually have to.
Thank you for reading, really. I'm finally closing that chapter of my life that I have carried for almost 5 years, thinking I'm not worth the fight and that I'm a disappointment.
Cheers to finally starting over eh? Thank you again for reading and voting.
xoxo
Marina
