When I See You

Chapter 15.

Taraji's POV

I woke up in Fantasias arms. I attempted to stretch and grab my phone. It was early, 7:45am. My body was sore. My legs were what hurt the most. Looking down at my naked body, all I there is to see are bruises. Hickies from her sucking on my entire body. I smiled a little bit.

Next to my phone on her nightstand was a picture of her and her two kids. Alongside her husband. I adjusted Fantasias hold on me so that I could sit up.
I held the picture in my hands.

Immediately guilt seeped in and tore me up. "Damn," I cussed at myself. "Fuck , fuck, fuck." I closed my eyes.

"T, you okay?" I heard Tasia's raspy voice.

"Yeah," I spoke, I swiped away a tear before looking up. I placed the picture back on the nightstand.

"Oh," Fantasia's eyes followed what was in my hand. "Come lay back down with me," she wrapped an arm around my waist.

"Tasia, I actually think that I'm going to head home," I didn't look back at her.

She lifted herself up on her elbows, "baby what time is it?" She rubbed her eyes.

"No, no you don't get to do that," I hung my head low as both of my hands were on the bed behind me. "You don't get to do that Fantasia,"

"Taraji talk to me, please. What's wrong?"

"Do you want to be with me?" The tears from my eyes began to fall.

"Yes I do," her hand touched mine.

"Only me, not him you can't be with him and me Fantasia,"

"I know, please T, come here. Let me hold you,"

"I need you to divorce him. I can't handle being a side bitch,"

"You're not a side bitch, you're my woman,"

"I need to see divorce papers," I stood up from her bed. I found my undergarments and put those on.

Fantasia rubbed her forehead. I know that it's early. She took a deep breath. "Can we please talk about this later? Let me take you to breakfast in a few hours, come back to bed,"

I slipped my dress on attempting to zip it up. Fantasia grabbed a tshirt of her and put it on. She got up from her bed to stop me from putting my heels on.

"Taraji, please talk to me. We just woke up,"

"I love you. You know I do, but I can't sleep with a married woman. I can't believe that I did," I put my other heel on.

"Me and Kendall are over," I heard Fantasia's voice crack.

I looked at her, her eyes were filled with water. I touched her face. "You regret it?" She asked me.

"I regret that I didn't wait,"

She moved from my hand. Removing my touch from her. Backing away from me. "Then go Taraji,"

"Fantasia-" i sucked my teeth. "I don't mean to sound like that-"

"Please just, just stop talking,"

I watched her get into her bed.

"Fantas-"

"Taraji you can leave," she turned her back towards me. Sniffling in the corner of her bed.

"I'm sorry," I apologized before I left.
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I was overthinking my whole way home. Did I make the wrong choice? Should I turn back around?

Once I arrived at home I was ready to run a bath, and play some music maybe drink some tea. I need to get out of my head. I opened the door to my house and walked inside.

It was quiet because it was still early. Jussie was laid out on the couch.

"J what are you doing down here," I said to myself before finding a blanket for him. Once I turned towards the other couch I saw a man. A man who looked far too familiar.

Fuck no. "JUSSIE," I hit his head. "Jussie wake the fuck up," I snatched the blanket that I had just put down on him.

I hit him again. "Ouch ma!" He covered his face with my hands.

"Ma please let me expl-"

"Get yo ass OUT of my house!"

(A/N im rewatching empire yall😭)

"Cookie?" I heard his raspy voice for the first time in damn near 30 years. I glared over at him before focusing on Jussie again.

"Why? I said," I took a deep breath. "I said no. And you went behind my back and did the shit anyway," my voice was down to a whisper. I looked at Jussie, tears filled my eyes but I managed to choke them back.

"He was on the street ma, he wants to get his life together," Jussie got up from the couch. "I've been talking to him for some time... I just didn't know how to tell you."

I rubbed my forehead. I finally looked at Terrence again. He looked so tired. His eyes had years of stress in them.

"Take a shower, and get him out of those clothes," I said before walking upstairs. "The only other room I have is the room I'm the basement, the basement is finished its just warm but I'll turn the air up. Fix yourselves something to eat when you get hungry. But stop sleeping on my couch, I need them to stay looking nice,"

I went upstairs and ran myself a bath. I played some jazz music and hopped inside of the tub. I looked at myself and was reminded of Fantasia. The way she made love to me last night is something I won't ever forget. The way she touched me and spoke to me. The way she sucked and licked and didn't hesitate. I haven't had good sex in a long time.

But I have to think with my head. I know that it's just too good to be true. And once she sobers up she'll acknowledge that too. I want her to leave him alone completely. But I know it's not possible.

I knew that before I kissed her back at the party and I knew that before I decided to stay in her bed with her. I knew what I was doing last night but I let it get taken too far. It can't happen again.

I checked my phone seeing an email from Oprah. She sent us our press tour information and when we would get started. In a couple of months. That should give me enough time to get everything situated.
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A quick chapter for y'all , I hope you enjoyed <3

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