This is gonna be so interesting. I'm a rotting pile of nothing and wanna cry. I feel so useless and I know I'm gonna have an episode tomorrow and it isn't gonna be good and with my luck it's gonna be like lunch or chorus. And I'm gonna feel overstimulated and wanna cry even more. And I know this because like I'm
So relaxed I know I'm gonna fucking loose it tomorrow. The worst part is that I don't know what it is. I don't have control over it and that's what scares me. Is that there is no closure. There is no diagnosed condition. There's no meds. It's just me and I hate it. And nobody believes me. DO I NEED TO BE SCREAMING AND SOBBING AT YOUR FUCKING FEET FOR YOU TO SEE IM NOT FAKING IT THAT I DONT WANR ATTENTION I WANT ANSWERS! I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME AND ITS SCARY. IM 13 AND I DONT KNOW MY LEFT FROM RIGHT. AND IM SCARED CAUSE IM JUST A FIVE YEAR OLD IN A OLDER BODY. I HAVENT MATURED SINCE FOURTH GRADE AND I WANNA CRY. Fuck me man
