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Matt - Stuck

hiiii babies! how are u guys?
this chapter is gonna be angsty!
tw! anxiety attack, crying, arguing, angst
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"Fuck, Matt. Just come out of your room for 5 minutes," Nick pleaded.

Matt had been in his room for the past few days, not eating, not drinking water, and only getting up to use the bathroom. Today, Nick sat in front of his door, waiting for him to exit his room. Matt was feeling depressed, and anxious, and just wanted to sleep forever. He suffered through his anxiety attacks alone, even though he knew Nick was right outside, with open arms and a caring heart.

But Matt wanted himself to hurt alone. He felt as if his mind was too weak. Matt thought as if this exercise would show him that he could get stronger if he could begin to learn how to take care of himself. Matt let his mind race, and at the last second before the climax of an attack, he'd try to distract himself. Kind of like turning off his emotions.

But, we all know Matt, right?

Right.

It seemed to Matt that this exercise wasn't working. And from Nick's perspective, the choked cries and sobs from the other side of the door proved that point.

"Please, Matthew. Just come out and we can breathe together!" Nick cried.

Matt sobbed on the other side of the door, head against the stiff wood. He hugged himself to feel some comfort, holding himself up by the waist with his small arms. His face was soaked with the fat tears rolling down his face.

Matt so desperately wanted to come out of his room and jump into his older brother's arms, but that damn voice was inside his head.

Don't go out, Matt. One more day. Just one.

"I can't, Nick," Matt wept, gripping the door handle.

It was as if his mind and body were disconnected. What he so longed for his body to do, to just open the fucking door, his mind would not allow.

"What do you mean, Matt? Just open the door!" Nick shouted, concern lacing his tone.

Nick was just about ready to bust down the door when Matt finally broke out of his trance, fumbling with the lock on the door, and as soon as Nick heard the click, he gripped the handle and pushed the door open. Matt collapsed to his knees, sobbing and gasping, trying to process the last few days he spent stuck in his head. Broken and anguished sobs fell from his lips, body trembling as he cried.

Nick hurried over to him, wrapping his arms around Matt's shaking body. "Shh, Matty, I've got you now, okay? I'm right here." Nick soothed, voice breaking unexpectedly.

Nick wiped his own tears on his T-shirt as he rocked Matt back and forth. "Nick," Matt whispered through his tears. "I- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to- to scare you."

"I don't understand, Matt. If your anxiety was getting bad again, why wouldn't you just... talk to me? I'm supposed to be here for you- I AM here for you, Matt!" Nick said in disarray and sorrow.

"I'm sorry! I thought this would work..." Matt trailed off, his chest rising and falling in an irregular pattern.

"Matt, take a deep breath, sweetheart." Nick's distraught expression faded into a look of concern as he watched his baby brother fall into a panic attack. Nick squeezed Matt's shaking hand tightly.

"I can't breathe- I-" Matt wailed.

Nick sprang into action, helping Matt through his attack. "You are okay, I'm here," he repeated over and over again.

When Matt was calmed down, Nick helped his brother's shaking and malnourished body down the stairs and into the kitchen for some food. Matt watched Nick in astonishment as he moved around the kitchen, making a plate of eggs for him. Nick placed a glass of water in front of Matt, and he finished it in one swift gulp. "More." Matt exhaled.

Nick placed the plate of food and another glass of water in front of Matt, and he began shovelling eggs and bites of waffles into his mouth greedily. "Thank you," Matt said around a mouthful of his breakfast.

"Of course, sweetie," Nick replied, kissing Matt on his forehead.

Matt knew he had Nick and Chris to help him through his rough patches, and he promised that from now on, he wouldn't try to isolate himself but surround himself with his sibling's love and care.

The End

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