In Gods Hands

Chapter Ten

(Albeit skipping all the chapters of their relationship building, as this is my leasrt favorite part to write and i will come back to it later lest i make a whole load of jokes to compensate for my dread of boredom, a boredom which i never experience the feeling of, not due to my constant amusement, but because i actually have no capability in my mind TO feel this emotion.... that being said and true, i will skip to the morbid minute where his now wife loses her life, but the miricle that happens when she does so... this be her work from God, as he finds out later in the book.... tell me if any one of you can figure out what her greatest prayer was, knowing she would not survive labour.)

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Kezia has been in pain intermitantly that entire night, and called me every so often from work (I was on a night shift that night) to tell me, as i asked, that she was alright, and to tell me not to worry about her, but i felt something was wrong... when her calls stopped... i tried to put it aside from my mind hoping the pain had stopped now and if she needed me home returning from work or if it had become any worse, that she would tell me. I stood over a blood test, working in labotomy this night, for we had been treaating a patient overnight and needed to know if the new medicine had had positive and wanted desired affects by testing thier blood, which was precisely what i was waiting for when i suddenly.... passed out. I was alone in the room while my coworker was in the office next door working in all the administartion and writting up a medical report, ready and prepareed to write the findings that I was to present to him... but i coulnd't wake up, i couldn't wake up, i couldn't wake up... I felt somebody pull me to my feet, and i looked at the office... i'd heard the phone ring and the odd word, "Speaking. ...Immediately." my colleague came running to me with phone in hand and called out, "Family emergancy. It Kezia." I took the phone and ansswered, trembling, and it was the hospital, about an hours drive away from where i was.... the closer one to my home.
Kezia had collapsed all of a sudden and had been outside at the time, just outside our front door... the neighbour had noticed and ran to her, concerned, and she had been completely unresponsive, and her pulse had suddenly stopped. The hospital had called me the very second she was admitted to them and spoke to me telling me to be on my way to her as instantly as now, and this call was before they had had time to treat her or give her any medicine, and they were doing tests on her to find out the cause and how best to help her, they confirmed she was fine and was breathing, but her pulse was dangerously low, and they suddenly said, "Emergancy! Hurry! She IS calling for you contantly!!!"
"What is the emergancy? Is it about her? I'm on my way, please tell me, i'm leaving work now."
But they'd already put the phone down.... i knew it was about her, and i was scared for her life. I ran in and time.... slowed down all around me, and a clock appeared in the corner of my vision. Everything and everybody moved slowly, i'd recieved the room number and the doctors name - she was in intensive care............... from the room ahead, was i hearing correctly? Silence was all around, everybody .. silent... i could hear no other sound but... a tiny newborn baby crying.
"I'm sorry but you can't go in just now." a nurse said to me, stopping me by the door. i insisted that i was her husband and needed to see her urgently, and i'd been called, they were expecting me. She needed me, she had been calling out my name, and that i would save her life... I walked in, no, ran and rushed in, leaving the door wide open, and the machine to start her heart had been used, and there was no pulse to be bread, and no sign of breathing, and the nurse next to her... held a tiny baby girl in her arms, looking so premature that i thought they would immediately take her to the childrens intensive care unit, but they did no such thing, and i knew that this baby... was my daughter.
I gulped, looking at the tiny baby, and i put my hand on her chest feeling her little breats regularly and really, with no problem at all... she had stopped crying now and was falling asleep, eyes closed, with her fists curled completely as if holding onto something..... i started crying, and told Kezia to please wake up, that she was to raise her daughter with me and be a mother to her, and that she had a reason to live, to come back to me.
Kezia ... smiled, peacefully... but didn't wake up, she didn wake up, she didn wake up... and i knew she was gone.
I stayed by her side talking to her for a long time, and held my baby who i knew, i simply new to call Summer somehow, this was the only name that i had in my mind, and it fitted her perfectly... i spoke to them both and i made Kezia a promise to love and care ofr our daughter with enough love and acceptance for both of us. I said to please show me that you are here and watching over us....
That was when Summer seemed to shine and glow and bright white light, and i knew i was the only one seeing this, and then she opened her eyes and looked up at me... but she was looking somewhere else... just to my side, looking back from one to the other, and i asked cooking where she is looking, saying "I'm here..." and i asked if shhe was looking at her mummy, for she could not see Kezia in person, i would not allow that, but she could see something or someone next to me, in between us both, and of this i was certain, "Who can you see? Can you see an Angel?"
Summer started kicking perfusely... and i told Kezie, "Please stay with us."
a tiny little squeek, i smiled, and Summer closed her eyes and fell back asleep