A Tale

Chapter 46

This chapter got commissioned so here it is💜 this story have four more chapters and then...

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Jungkook bit his lower lip while twirling the ladle in the pan. However, his attention wasn't concentrated on the food in front of him as his thoughts were divided into too many things. Three weeks have passed and Jungkook has worked hard to turn this apartment into their home once again. His eyes traveled from the closed door to the hanging coats on the arches of the left wall, he needed to wash them too. 

It's not an easy task to indulge into something that he once ruined with his own hands, the guilt was still heavy in his chest but as the reason for his wrongs vanished, his guilt has found a passage to dribble through the self-assurance of his husband. 

His husband. 

His lower lips jutted out super unconsciously as he pouted deeply immersed in the thoughts of his husband. His husband who still hasn't forgiven him from his heart. He can see Taehyung’s partial sulkiness in the way he hammered the screws in the wall while he holds the paintings to hang, in the way he eats bell peppers without flicking or scrunching his nose in distaste, in the way he calls him by baby but didn't meet his eyes at all, in the way he doesn't pick and taunt on his cooking anymore. 

So he knows that Taehyung still hasn't forgotten what he has made him go through in seven months. An absolute torture. Jungkook gulped when his eyes swelled up again for the umpteenth time of the day. 

Those seven months weren't easy for him too but at least he had an excuse, had a purpose to go through the things he was bringing in their relationship. He knew that those things weren't true but for Taehyung, he lived those things while witnessing and believing all the lies Jungkook had forced upon him. 

For Jungkook, His husband was surely stronger than him. If for one moment… he thinks to switch positions and takes the place of his husband. He doesn't think he can handle the rejections and the displays of affection with some other male as sanely as his husband did. 

He is weak like that. He knows but right now he is unable to turn the wheel of time upside down, he can't bring that time back and pick another pair of wise choices that he would like to replace or create in the past. 

So he has decided to accept everything that comes in front of him. He will face the odd silence of his husband, it's not that his husband ignores him.. No. He just doesn't indulge with him the way he likes to do before…before he went and fucked up everything with his big brain.

Maybe they both needed time before they found a moment of constant where their hearts align in one beat and everything starts all over once again. Nowadays though, Jungkook’s need of time has crossed it's limit and reached upto three negative points but what is there that he could possibly do and still wouldn't look like a needy bitçh in heat? 

Nothing. He can do absolutely nothing.

It's not like Taehyung doesn't kiss him now. He does. But the kisses lacked the roughness and sloppiness Taehyung used to give him before. He knows he shouldn't compare the affection of his husband like that but fuçk him he can't help himself anymore! 

He wants to cry and scream loudly when Taehyung plants such parrot-picking and fish-dying kisses on his lips like it's too burdensome to move his lips or God forbid, use his tongue at all. But Jungkook accepts everything, and grabs little pickles of affection like the hungry dog he is. 

Jungkook sighed loudly and relaxed his shoulders when his focus returned to the pan. He added the last batch of pasta for lunch and made a note to visit the grocery store while walking back from his husband’s garage.