Your Lying Heart (Hearts Series #4)

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Thirteen

Changed

I think everything was okay, but not until Yessabella's ex returned...

I learned that he was abroad to chase his own dreams and goals. He left Yessa and chose his career over her. That's why they broke up. Kaya bakit pa siya bumalik?

And now that Yessa's already married to me? He should've distanced himself. If he's a real man then he won't anymore try to take back what he's already lost, especially knowing that his ex already have a husband and a family.

Lalaki rin ako. But I wasn't as sick as to do that.

Gusto niya lang ba talaga na manira ng pamilya?

"You went home late again today."

She almost jumped when she heard me speak. Gabing-gabi na at inabangan ko siya sa pinto ng bahay namin.

"You went off from the hospital earlier than me. But when I went home you weren't here yet and Leon was already crying looking for you." I said.

And this wasn't the first time that this happened. May ilang beses ko na rin siyang nahuhuli na ganito. And she just always made excuses.

She looked away. "Uh, I was just... May dinaanan lang ako kanila Mary."

"Mary?" I asked.

"Yeah, my high school friend. It's for Leon. Para sa inaanak niya. Pasalubong daw, since her family went to New York last time." She tried to smile at me.

"Where's it then?"

"Uh, oo nga pala. I left it in the car. Kukunin ko lang." She said about the gift that she said she got from her friend for our son.

Umiling ako. "Huwag na. Umakyat ka na at magpahinga. We still have work at the hospital tomorrow." I said. At tinalikuran ko na lang siya. Nauna na rin akong umakyat sa kwarto namin pagkatapos...

To be honest, I feel like something have changed. I can feel like my wife have changed...

Una pa lang ay naramdaman ko na iyon sa kaniya. Iniisip ko pa at binalikan din ang mga nangyari sa amin dahil baka pala kasi may nagawa o nasabi ako sa kaniya na hindi niya nagustuhan. I was also thinking, na baka may mali rin pala ako...

But thinking that you did something wrong feels like you're just also trying to justify your partner's affair. Walang mali sa 'yo. Because in the end it was still her choice to cheat on me.

I remember when it exactly started. And it probably started when her ex returned. Pero bumalik na rin dati ang ex niya, hindi ba? I remember meeting him first at the restaurant kung saan kami nag-date dati ni Yessa. At hindi pa kami mag-asawa noon. Kaya bakit kung gusto niya palang bumalik sa kaniya hindi na lang niya ginawa noon pa habang maaga pa at habang hindi pa siya magkakasala nang ganito? Bakit ngayon pa na mag-asawa na kami.

But despite when I wasn't feeling all okay about us, I even tried to set aside my doubt and I still tried to embrace her, and kiss her on our bed at night. But she refused my touch and my kiss...

"I'm sorry, Leo. Pagod kasi ako ngayon dahil sa trabaho kanina sa hospital. Ang dami kong pasyente." Tipid siyang ngumiti sa akin. "Good night, honey." She just kissed my cheek instead. At pagkatapos ay tinalikuran na niya ako ng higa sa kama namin...

Until one time, sinubukan ko lang na sundan siya sa lakad niya. Nagpaalam naman siya sa akin kanina na mauna na raw akong umuwi sa bahay dahil may dadaanan lang siya sa bahay raw ng parents niya. I think she said that it has something to do with her mom. May ibibigay daw sa amin dahil galing din sa bakasyon abroad ang parents niya.

"Sasamahan na lang kita." sabi ko nang magpaalam siya sa akin.

Pero umiling siya sa akin. "Huwag na. May pasyente ka pa, oh. While I'm done already. Tapusin mo na muna ang checkups nila 'tapos umuwi ka na rin sa bahay at doon na lang tayo uli magkita, okay?" Ngumiti siya sa akin.

Ilang sandali pang nagtagal ang tingin ko sa kaniya at sa huli ay nagbuntong-hininga na lang ako at tumango na lang din sa kaniya. She smiled at me once more before she left.

Why can't she just wait for me for a little while and we could go together at her parents' house?

Pero tinapos ko na rin agad ang follow up checkup na lang din sa isang pasyente ko. At pagkatapos ay nagmadali akong sundan si Yessa. I didn't want to do this. But she's pushing me to doubt her more with her suspicious actions...

Sumakay ako sa sasakyan ko at agad kong sinundan ang sasakyan din niya na palabas na ng basement parking ng ospital.

I was tailing her car until it stopped on a hotel... At doon ko na nga silang dalawa nahuli kasama ng lalaki niya.

Dumaan siya sa may front desk sa lobby ng hotel, and I also followed after her. Nagkunwari akong nag-check in din at doon ko siya sinundan. At hindi ko na alam ang iisipin ko nang makita ko nga siyang pumasok sa isang hotel suite. I even stood there outside of the room. I felt stupid thinking kung kakatok ba ako...

Nakatayo lang ako roon hanggang sa muling bumukas ang pinto ng room na pinasukan ng asawa ko at lumabas doon si Yessa...

"Leo..."

My mind went back to the present and when I turned to see who went in my private hospital room I saw Yessabella already standing there near the door...

And I just looked at her...

Pagkatapos ay nag-iwas din ako ng tingin. I know that we have to talk. Dahil iniwasan ko nang kausapin siya noon bago ako naaksidente. And now I just want to talk to her and decide whether we should just end our marriage in divorce now...

After all, sira na kami...

At hindi ko alam kung kaya pa bang maayos ang nasira sa amin.

Kahit na halos hindi ko rin siya kayang harapin ngayon, dahil parang bago pa lang uli sa alaala ko ang mga nangyari. At galit ako. But when will I ever talk to her? Tama na. Kailangan na naming mag-usap ngayon. And then decide after this.