Your Lying Heart (Hearts Series #4)

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fourteen

Trust

I caught my wife in a hotel room with another man. And even though she was still fully dressed, at alam ko na kakapasok pa lang niya roon nang lumabas din siya agad ay hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko na lalo pang magduda at tuluyang mawalan na ng tiwala sa kaniya.

And when I saw that she caught up with me I immediately decided to just leave the house. Hindi ko pa siya kayang pakiharapan agad pagkatapos lang ng tagpo kanina. Magulo pa ang isip ko at hindi ako makapag-isip nang maayos. Kaya nagdesisyon ako na mabuting umiwas na lang muna.

Isa pa nasa bahay lang din ang anak namin. And although Leon was young I still didn't want my son to witness me fighting with his mom. He might cry and it can traumatize him. I didn't want that to happen to my own son.

At siguro kung wala lang kaming anak ni Yessa ay baka pa kung ano na ang nagawa ko sa kaniya...

I just gritted my teeth to stop myself.

"Leo, sandali lang—"

I ignored her and just went back to my car.

"It was the first time!"

I can hear the frustration in her voice.

"It wasn't intentional... I didn't went there for what you think." Nagpatuloy siya sa pagsubok na magpaliwanag sa akin.

"And I swear, Leo! Nothing happened!"

Biglaan ko siyang hinarap.

"Who's that man, Yessa?" I remember that I asked her before I left the house that night. And before my accident happened...

While she looked at me with begging eyes. "He's Carlos... He's my ex..." She shook her head while trying to explain herself to me.

"Your ex?"

We didn't really talked about our exes before. I just find it unnecessary to talk about. So I also didn't know about her past...

She bit her lip and nodded a bit. "We broke up before because he needed to leave the country at that time to chase on his dreams..." She said.

Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa.

Ilang sandali ko pa siyang tiningnan pagkatapos ay muli ko rin siyang tinalikuran. I can't talk to her right now...

But she held on my elbow. "Leo, please! Nothing happened to us... please. I swear, wala talagang nangyari sa amin..." She desperately held onto me.

Binalingan ko siya uli. And I was never a violent person. Ni minsan ay hindi ko siya pinagbuhatan ng kamay. But I couldn't take it anymore. I gripped on her jaw. And I swear that I could see red. It was the first time that I thought I could kill someone. That I could kill people, both her and that motherfucker of her ex.

She was trying to explain to me. But it seemed I couldn't understand or hear her. O baka ayaw ko lang na makinig sa kaniya. Parang naging sarado ang tainga ko at tumigas ang puso ko kahit para sa kaniya na asawa mo. Her betrayal felt greater than my love for her at that time...

And then I saw her tears falling while I was gripping her jaw tight with my hand. I stopped doing that. And I had to remind myself that she's still the mother of my child...

Inisip ko na lang si Leon...

Until my accident happened that halted everything.

"Leo..."

I looked at her. We were alone in my private hospital room when she came. Tiningnan ko lang siya muna nang unti-unti siyang lumapit sa akin. Marahan ang mga hakbang niya at parang may pagdadalawang-isip pa. At hinayaan ko lang siya.

"We need to talk." Nagsalita na rin ako na nagpatigil sa kaniya.

She looked at me. And then she slowly nodded her head.

But what I said next shocked her. Her lips parted.

"Let's file for divorce or annulment..." deretso ko nang sinabi sa kaniya.

"Leo..." She shook her head. "Hindi tayo maghihiwalay."

I looked at her. "You think you can make a fool out of me all you want?"

Umiling siya. "I didn't, Leo. Hindi kita niloko..."

"Really? But from my last memory before the accident I just caught you in a hotel with another man, Yessa." I gritted my teeth.

Umawang muli ang labi niya at hindi siya agad nakapagsalita pagkatapos ng sinabi ko.

"Tell me I'm wrong, Yessa... You were cheating on me with your ex—"

"That's not true!" Malakas niyang sinabi at mariin siyang pumikit bago niya muli akong tiningnan ng may luha na niyang mga mata...

"I didn't... sleep with him at all..." iling niya.

I looked away...

"You broke my trust..." I said after a while.

"And why was he even at our son's party? Did you invite him—" I looked at her again.

Umiling-iling naman siya agad sa sinabi ko. "Hindi. Hindi ko siya inimbita sa birthday ni Leon. I also wasn't expecting him to be there. Hindi ko nga rin alam kung bakit pa ba siya nagpunta roon para lang guluhin tayo... At, Leo, maniwala ka sa 'kin na matagal ko na siyang iniwasan." She said.

I just shook my head. As if I couldn't believe anything she said...

It's what's hard in trying to forgive, and learning to trust someone again who had already betrayed you once...

Ang hirap kasi kapag tiwala na ang nasira. From the very beginning I had trusted her. But then she just broke my trust because she still lied to me.

Hindi ko alam kung maibabalik ko pa ba ang tiwalang nawala ko na para sa kaniya...

I guess I will just always doubt her...

"Have you already moved on from him when you started dating me before?" I asked her.

She was looking at me. At hindi pa niya agad nasagot ang tanong ko. Kaya naman lalo lang din akong nagduda pa sa kaniya. Even the love that she told me she had for me, I doubt it now... I doubt everything...

"Why, Yessa..." Umawang din ang labi ko habang halos natutulala na lang...

"Why would you use me..."

"I..." She stopped.

I looked at her.

She shook her head while this time her tears already fell. "I didn't just used you to forget about my past relationship... Leo, I was also broken-hearted and I was..."

"But you still somehow did use me... And what did I do to you to deserve that from you? Was I a very bad husband? May pagkakamali rin ba ako? May kulang ba sa 'kin? Tell me—"

Umiling siya. "Walang mali sa 'yo, Leo. You were a perfect husband. And a great Dad to Leon... Many things have happened already... Please, Leo..." She looked at me with her begging eyes again. Pagkatapos ay mas lalo pa siyang lumapit sa akin.

Pero umalis na ako sa hospital bed ko at naglakad patungo sa nakabukas na bintana at tumingin na lang muna sa tanawin sa labas. Maybe the scenery outside could calm me a little...

I was angry. But now more than that, I just also feel weak... I feel as though everything from the start was just a lie...

I feel like Yessa didn't really love me. And she just stayed with me because it was convenient... It was all too convenient.

I get it now.

I smiled with no emotion of gladness in my eyes as I just watched what's outside this hospital room's window. At parang natutulala lang din ako roon.

"We can still fix this..." She said behind me.

At muli ko na siyang hinarap pagkatapos.

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